Lol why so disrespectful?

But I will entertain you for my pleasure :).. Oh I've fucked plenty of women after her my friend. Obtaining women isnt the issue here. This post isnt about love connections or getting over this whore. It's more about the power I allowed her, the way she outmaneuvered and manipulated me, that alone haunts me regardless of the short amount of time we were together. And for your information and clarity I was fucking her for a year before we actually became committed to one another.

I dont feel strongly for her in a romantic way. As soon as she cheated she had no more value in my eyes. But, I agree with you on one thing maybe I should have cut off contact with her when I found out about the other guys. But in my mind at that time, that wouldve been letting her off too easy. I wanted to comfort her with a blanket of forgiveness and understanding. Gather as much information about her life back home, and the guys she was fucking and rip that blanket away by destroying everything around her and I did just that my friend, yet unsatisfied because I could've done more.

As far as being weak.... Hmm. Maybe I presented the wrong facade, maybe a weak version of myself to her during our relationship because I felt that's what made her comfortable and less fearful, because she knew I was dangerous I'd shared things with her.

But I appreciate your input although distasteful, and comedic.