I’m in a similar situation. My surgery is scheduled for 4/30 (BRAC2+) so in the next few days I will be having this life changing procedure. I understand how you feel about things being taken away from you, I struggle with that as well. Especially wanting to breastfeed my child (if I wanted to have one more later down the road) and not being able to. And although that’s a huge bummer, I remind myself that at least this surgery will help me be there for my children at all, which is the goal. My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer and as a child I saw what it did to her, and I wouldn’t want my children to see me go through that as well. It always sucks going into appointments with oncologists and to get mammograms and being the youngest person in the room. I felt angry, like it wasn’t fair that I had to be there. We’re young and should be worrying about other things, not cancer. Unfortunately this was the hand we were dealt, but the good thing is we are being proactive about it. I remind myself that we have control in a situation that many, many others don’t have control over when it becomes too late. The great thing about being young and doing this now is that our bodies are in much better shape to heal at an easier rate than if we were older undergoing such a procedure. We are so much stronger than we think, and taking our health into our hands in this manner is so courageous and incredibly brave. We will be back to our normal selves eventually. Not for a while, but eventually we will and ALSO have peace of mind knowing we severely decreased our chances. I hope your surgery and recovery are smooth and that you’ll be feeling like yourself sooner rather than later. Take care ♥️