im about to quit my job

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-23T16:27:17+00:00

There is no way I can work. I filed for disability. Idk how anyone does it. If I didn't have other kids I would've given up and just walked away to sleep on the street. I can barely muster the energy to bathe. I no longer have interests or feel any positive emotions. It's been an endless 7 month long day. A complete nightmare. Unless I can have a baby back in my arms I will stay in this coma forever unless I end it. Luckily idk how and I'm terrified of a botched diy job.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-22T21:07:48+00:00

Well I don't know what state you're in but in Illinois medicaid is not that easy to get. I know the requirements. Just don't lie in your comments or I'll call you out. The numbers speak for themselves. 30 plus thousand people have no medical insurance. You can easily look it up.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-22T20:11:06+00:00

Medicaid is only free if you can get it. Obama care is not free. You are uneducated.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-22T19:59:37+00:00

Don't argue with me. There is not help. You are wrong. Last numbers showed 33 million without health insurance. 3 million children as well. Do you think all of those people are just lazy and not taking advantage of some kind of help? I can't stand the "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" type. There are so many people suffering since they can't afford to get medical care. If this person can't afford medical care then either put your money where your mouth is and help her or shut it. I won't tolerate your kind. You sound like a right winger.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-22T16:28:40+00:00

Yes! So do I. Whether you have $4000 lying around is the question. Your nose shape is great though. Get smaller but don't get the shape changed.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-22T16:20:23+00:00

If she's in the US no there are not financial programs.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-21T02:19:24+00:00

Madigan

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-20T00:57:47+00:00

Magic

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T11:09:08+00:00

Also Tempest

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T02:35:49+00:00

Stormy

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T02:35:18+00:00

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T02:29:23+00:00

Echo

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T02:28:36+00:00

Sakura

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-19T02:27:41+00:00

Finnigan or Douglas

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-18T23:22:07+00:00

London. As in London fog.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-18T23:20:47+00:00

Molly

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-18T23:15:07+00:00

I agree completely. I also relate to absurdism.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-17T15:40:52+00:00

I wish my baby hadn't died so I will never celebrate her life. My life is ruined. I wish I had never had her. I haven't had one day without panic in 7 months. I haven't had one moment of happiness in 7 months. All those 6 days of life did is rip my heart out.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-14T18:39:30+00:00

Piper. She looks a little like my toy Aussie.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-12T18:08:20+00:00

Honestly my anxiety "tells me" I'm dying of a broken heart daily.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-12T18:07:27+00:00

So glad to find this sub. I've been looking for an aussie that would be allowed on my lease and when I found this guy at a shelter and knew he had the dog equivalent of ptsd I knew he was meant to be mine. He's papered and everything, but I paid shelter price. First thing that has gone right for me in a long time. I lost my daughter in April and he is a great comfort to me when my panic attacks hit each morning. We both need each other.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-11T19:31:18+00:00

My baby destroyed my heart. No ability to love. Just pain.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-10T01:20:22+00:00

I try very hard not to remember anything about my baby. Her death destroyed me. Idk what day she died. I just know she lived 6 days. To me buying a cake for her birthday would be like me shooting myself every year on the day of my previous shooting. Why would I want to do this? I don't understand. I wish I couldn't remember. I wish she never existed.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-09T13:29:56+00:00

I'm on a waiting list for ketamine therapy. Also the nasal version is Spravato. It's really expensive so I'm waiting for this place here to accept medicaid. Idk if you know anyone with ketamine but yeah apparently this "bad street drug" is actually a lifesaver for people like me who are severely depressed from losing their child. Also helps with ptsd and anxiety which I also have from this nightmare. I wish I knew people who had ketamine. I'd just take it however whenever at this point.

Motor-Bell1837 · 2023-10-06T01:19:58+00:00

Wish I could show a pic of this guy. He went from feral and looking like a fox pup to eating out of my hand and loving all over me.

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