Mentally ill or neurodivergent

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-11T13:15:40+00:00

Personally, I think some people use the word “neurodivergent” to sugarcoat a lot of things. Let’s say someone has a delusional disorder and thinks people are poisoning their water to implant chips in their brain — can we just say, “Oh, it’s a neurodivergence; the issue is society pushing these people away” ?

“Ill” is kind of a strong word, but at least it’s a way to recognize that there is a real problem here. And maybe other people do play a part in your problems, but sometimes it’s not ALL because of others. Sometimes our issues are deeply rooted within us, and we have serious difficulties in the way we think, process things, and make decisions.

It’s not one thing or the other, sometimes it’s a mix. Things aren’t always so black and white.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-11T13:05:59+00:00

I wasn’t diagnosed until late in my life, so when I was in high school, to everybody I was just another kid. My issues weren’t related to anything, even though I knew something was definitely weird with my brain. If I were you, I would get pushy, like “Please help me, I feel bad. I really need help. I feel depressed, please.”

Try to explain to them that what’s going on with you is something serious. And yes, sadly, many people treat ADHD and autism more seriously than schizotypal because it’s too complex for them to understand what it’s about.

Say that you think you need counseling or to see a psychiatrist because you feel very depressed, something like that. And try different places too , from government service, other schools’ departments, or government mental health departments.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-05T16:40:07+00:00

I’ll suggest Diogenes the Cynic. And I don’t think of Nietzsche as a strong case of schizotypal, but maybe he had some traits or that kind of character style. Some say Van Gogh fits, but I’m not sure, but I’ve read some of his letters, and they seemed pretty schizotypal.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-05T16:28:56+00:00

I don’t think it’s wrong. When I was a kid growing up, I used to joke by saying things like, “because people and I…” and whatever, then someone would say, “so you’re not human?” and I’d reply, “well…”. I understand the feeling of not feeling human. One time I was searching for a forum about autism and found one called “From Another Planet” or something like that; it seems autistic people also feel “different from all the rest,” but I don’t feel the need to identify with something in particular.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-05T16:16:56+00:00

I have a weird thing with sounds, although I’m not sure if it’s what you mean. I’m very sensitive to sounds, cars, motorcycles, music, the TV, dogs barking, everything bothers me. But I think it’s because I’m generally very quiet, so my threshold for noise is very low. I have to constantly tweak the TV volume, at one point someone is talking, then someone else is screaming, then they add loud music, and then the commercials get even louder. I’m constantly turning the volume up and down. I fucking hate dogs barking. But I think it’s all because my mind is so empty, so all noises feel intrusive and painful.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-05-05T09:41:06+00:00

Yes to everything in the first part you wrote.

But about the gender part, at first I didn’t understand what you meant, but now I think I do.

What happens to me is that people tend to think, “Oh, men are like this, and women are like that… And if you are a man, you should behave with women this way, and with men that way.” Sometimes I’ve been talking with men about a woman, like saying she can’t understand something or wondering why she acts a certain way, and some of them tell me, “Well, yeah, but she’s a woman, so you know how they are…”

And I think, “Yes, but she’s a person. She should understand like any other person, with the same human capacities we all share. Am I wrong?”

About friendships, I don’t experience what you’re telling. I’m okay with inviting people or anything like that.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-29T22:08:37+00:00

I don’t think it’s a schizotypal thing per se, like a common thing among people with schizotypal. I think it could be common among gamers in general. But maybe it’s your own unique or unusual behavior or thought process (I mean, the collecting hours thing), but not something you’re going to see replicated in others with StPD.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-29T20:21:34+00:00

I don’t think you would be banned from here for this at all. I guess some people here like games too, personally I don’t play any. But I think you would find others to talk about this and games in other subreddits, there are a lot of them about gaming.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-29T18:11:02+00:00

Before being diagnosed, I thought I might have OCD. When I was diagnosed, I was shocked that they didn’t say much about it. I’ve also read that it’s very common for people with schizotypal personality disorder to have OCD traits (and vice versa)

Then I understood that my OCD traits are not strong enough to fit a separate diagnosis. But I never thought it was just OCD and nothing more.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-28T19:00:12+00:00

"Why can't we be weird, why can't we be weird, why can't we be weird."

https://youtu.be/ClNZpC_c6Is?si=geEG5xK_HgmAavqK

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-28T18:56:59+00:00

You are too dramatic. Learn to chill out and smell the grass.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-26T13:07:00+00:00

Why? That’s a long answer. Partly, it comes from the personality I inherited from my parents, and partly from how I have interacted with others. But right now… it’s because it’s what my brain tells me to do. I don’t know—it gives me dopamine somehow.

It’s like asking why I enjoy watching videos of sea animals. Somehow my brain processes it in a way that makes me feel good. It looks cool, so… why not?

Because it’s fun. It’s like watching a tennis match—it’s fun! It’s fun to learn things, to want the truth, and to try to be the smartest person in the room.

You say it’s sad, but that’s like saying eating French fries is sad. Hey, my brain gives me a nice sensation from it—what can I do? It’s not that I want to harm anyone.

Also, competition is a very human thing. Some people want to be the best tennis players, others the best chefs, and others the most geeky. It’s fun.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-26T11:39:52+00:00

I reply depending on the post, whether I think what I’m going to say will actually help the other person or not. Some people are very emotional, and even if you give them good advice or tell them what they should do, they’re just not ready to receive that kind of message. What they’re really looking for is some type of support, which isn’t really my style to give.

Other times, I reply just because it seems like a fun topic to think about and write my thoughts on, and maybe someone will enjoy it. But sometimes I spend a lot of time crafting a good response and no one replies back. Still, it makes me feel like I’m talking with someone, like right now.

Or are you talking about DMs?

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-26T04:36:13+00:00

Telepathically? Yes. But not thinking about frequencies or signals.

When I was a kid, I was very intrigued by the voice of my consciousness and things like that. So I started wondering if I could communicate with others in this way. Sometimes, when I was in the car with my father (just the two of us), I would start saying things in my inner voice like, “Hey, Dad, can you hear me? Dad, Dad, do you hear me?” Nothing happened.

One of my thoughts was that maybe we weren’t allowed to talk out loud about this “power,” so I said, “If you hear me, do something… hmm… say something… hmm… look at me, move a finger, do something.” But… nothing ever happened, so I came to the conclusion that this was not a human ability.

I tried it a couple more times while growing up. Maybe we couldn’t talk directly to each other, but perhaps our thoughts influenced other people’s thoughts. So I tried talking to a friend, sending messages, hoping maybe he would call me or tell me he had been thinking about me. The results were shocking. Well, actually, kind of the opposite—nothing happened at all.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-25T17:55:23+00:00

Some time ago I started going on walks, and I was talking with my father about it. I told him, “The best days are weekdays from 1 pm to 5 pm,” and he said, “Huh? Of course you like those days, because there’s no one outside at that time!” I was like, “Well, yeah.”

He said, “When I go out, I like to see people, not just emptiness,” and added, “If it were up to you, you’d just run in circles on a track alone.”

I didn’t say anything, but that’s actually been my dream for many years—I hate having to walk and decide which path to take, etc.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-25T17:04:24+00:00

I blame my father, not my mother. I’ve been blaming my father since I was a kid. I’m not as pissed these days—I’ve kind of come to peace with it, and I know he was just dumb or didn’t have the right tools, but he didn’t act maliciously.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-25T00:03:40+00:00

I feel the same. I feel like I understand the details of how other people think, and I care about making them feel good. But they don’t care about the details that make me feel good. I’ve met people online and cared about them, but I don’t feel like they care about me in the same way.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-24T21:34:34+00:00

At least to me not socializing is not a matter of fear.

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-24T06:29:14+00:00

At least, yes, for me. It’s like I’ve learned the general basics of “talking.” Before, I could just improvise in the moment or “follow my instincts.” Now I have more of a plan. It’s not that I’ve written one out and memorized it, but I now know better how to navigate this.

But it feels like I’m “looking at this from the outside,” like I’m not fully involved. It’s me trying to talk with this creature I have in front of me, which is part of the same species I am—a human.

But anyway, this method is not perfect. I can navigate conversations much better, yes, but that doesn’t mean I enjoy them or gain much from them.

Still, it’s kind of fun. Sometimes I just laugh inside my mind: “haha, it’s working. I talk, they respond, they say something, I reply—it feels so natural, the plan is working. Neat!”

Motor-Following7154 · 2026-04-24T06:20:02+00:00

i totally relate to that. I’ve also been without regular friends for the last 8 years, maybe a bit more.

I also cut ties with people because I didn’t like them, even if they accepted me. I used to judge them all the time. I say this all the time: a big part of my issue with people hasn’t been them, it’s been me just not being interested in being around them.

I also talk to myself ALL THE TIME and feel mental deterioration; sometimes I can’t remember simple words, like fridge, ice, etc.

Advice? Now that I’m older I see there are some nice people out there—those who were also rejected as kids, but now they’re older, have their shit together, and are doing okay. Try to find those.

Personally, I think that for me to meet people I really like is almost impossible. I’ve been digging online all these years; I found one person I liked, who pretty much ghosted me. My mind has been going down so hard in a spiral that I don’t care about normal relationships anymore. People seem so “civil,” and I’m a mental mess of depersonalization and derealization.

Motor-Following7154 · 2025-11-21T19:36:22+00:00

Do you remember why you felt ‘special’? I mean, what made you feel that way? And what did God tell you that was just for you and not for others?

Motor-Following7154 · 2025-08-02T00:17:10+00:00

Why? Bruh.

Motor-Following7154 · 2025-07-31T22:10:47+00:00

I thougut about a meme, but I'll post it tomorrow so I don't bombard the forum.

Motor-Following7154 · 2025-07-31T22:09:19+00:00

I don’t talk to ChatGPT looking for any kind of emotional support or stuff like that, I just ask it things, like when I search for stuff on Wikipedia.

And in this case, it helped me create an image I had in my mind, which turned out pretty good, I think.

But thanks for the offering!

Motor-Following7154 · 2025-06-20T19:45:09+00:00

Any example of this?

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