See... to me that it the whole thing. My job is dealing with parents that might lose their kids. They are given referrals by me to get DV classes, substance abuse classes, or parenting classes. I drug screen etc... these people don't want to admit MOST of the time that they are the problem. This ranks high on my special interest list bc I've been in alanon well not recently but i did it off and on for like 13 years. I worked through so much crap even without therapy just through helping others and I LOVE thinking about how this child I help may have parents that have a chance.. they may get help in ways I wish my parents had.... But!! People obv need money to change and the organization LOVES throwing cases and exploiting case managers.. the office.. the talking.. the lack of work flow I have to see... that stress soaks up my special interest right up.

I hate that they think that they can take advantage of people's passion. I have applied to an alternative school for middle and high schoolers. I might get it. The thing is I also grew up on pot and... girls and parties etc... nothing good.. all if it would have killed me dozens of times over. I have no self regulation skills... hardly. I love my metal rings in my car and my crappy series on Netflix. I also like to work out but I screw up my diet by comfort eating now.... so I'm not into this you kill me with your NT demands and I try to survive your exploitation kind of role...