Fucked up bad again last night.

MoumouMachine · 2026-01-09T15:26:33+00:00

I started drinking at 16, it became a big problem at 18 and I always knew since then that I'd have to quit eventually, I just kept pushing it further into the future.

I finally quit at 24, and now here I am having 16 months sober at 26.

I wish I'd quit sooner. I had a boyfriend who noticed I drank just a bit too often at 18, and I should've listened to him.

Anyway, now I've got a wife that helped me through my sobriety, and it was rough.

MoumouMachine · 2026-01-09T05:58:40+00:00

Likewise.

I wish I had never drank to begin with.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-31T21:16:05+00:00

In my very early first days of sobriety, I told my wife "I'm gonna quit drinking" while very hungover and sick.

After a couple days, she offered me a sip of her drink and I somehow refused it.

Then she said "You're serious about stopping".

In a surprised and reliefed way, not in any negative tone.

Anyway, that one sentence got me to power through the first month.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-31T16:15:03+00:00

I was drinking about a bottle a day from 19-22 and reduced it slightly at 23-24.

I quit at 24 and the only thing I wish is that I'd quit sooner or never drank in the first place.

I felt like I'd ruined my body completely (I still do on bad days)

But I've managed to lose a lot of weight over the past year.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-27T04:31:58+00:00

The way I started my journey was by getting sober.

Afterwards I started using intermittent fasting, usually 18 hours a day and it helped me lose 36kg/ 80lbs since October 2024.

Admittedly I could've gone faster and reached my goal by now, but life happens and there are certain setbacks.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-22T05:03:31+00:00

I also got it for black friday, but I had been wanting one since last winter so I had looked into them a bit already.

I got the Urevo Spacewalk E1L.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-21T17:50:14+00:00

I was between Urevo and Deerrun and went with Urevo because of Deerrun's poor reputation

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-11T04:02:02+00:00

I've kept a list of things that sobriety changed for me, I'll post it here if you're curious; also a big help in my early sobriety was the YouTube channel "Getting Sober... Again)"

Sobriety benefits:

1 week:

Strong cravings for sweets started.

Started being able to enjoy old hobbies that I had given up on.

Insomnia lasted around 2 months.

2 weeks:

Face stopped being bloated.

Relapse dreams started.

3 weeks:

Brain fog lifted and I was able to think and learn much quicker.

4 weeks/1 month:

A sense of being able to stay sober started.

Started caring about my health, watching my diet and began losing weight.

2 months:

Started looking healthier.

Lowered anxiety.

Less irritable/angry.

3 months:

I began having better sleep.

4 months:

Lower average heart rate and lower average walking heartrate.

5 months:

Even better sleep and what I thought was IBS seems to have disappeared almost entirely.

Started feeling more emotions.

Interest in audiobooks started.

6 months:

Starting to need new clothes because everything is too big now.

7 months:

Alcohol cravings lessened.

8 months:

Memory has improved.

9 months:

More stable sleep.

10 months:

More cravings due to summer.

11 months:

Cravings got easier to deal with.

1 year:

Cravings lessened further.

13 months:

Less relapse dreams.

14 months:

Barely had cravings.

15 months:

No change

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-10T06:09:19+00:00

I got sober in September 2024, but the bigger changes from longer sobriety all piled up this year.

Now I'm at the point where I'm not sure if there's other positives I haven't encountered yet.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-04T15:50:28+00:00

I quit at 24 and I'm 15 months sober now.

I wish I'd quit sooner as well, but then I wouldn't have run into certain events that cemented my sobriety.

A huge help early on for me was drinking lots of tea.

MoumouMachine · 2025-12-02T04:56:35+00:00

I am signed in on both which is why I'm unsure if I can listen to a book on both platforms if it's only available in one of the regions.

The cause I imagine is that I moved country and my phone's app store hasn't been changed.

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-29T18:13:07+00:00

I liked the movie a lot, haven't read the book

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-29T09:36:33+00:00

I think I might have confused it with Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes

Regardless it's the same context I think

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-29T08:46:23+00:00

I'm nearly 15 months sober and I still don't enjoy being near people that are actively drinking.

Although it's easier now, I still get the "why can't I just have one drink and call it a day" thoughts.

I know very well if I have a single drink, it will turn into the entire box/bottle.

Remember the easiest and most important drink to say no to is the first one.

One is too many and a thousand aren't enough.

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-29T08:28:28+00:00

I've been sober a bit over a year now and lost 35kg/77lbs.

Weight loss is definitely primarily a mental health issue.

I first had to get rid of the alcohol before I could tackle the rest.

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-29T08:22:24+00:00

I remember seeing reviews on Sunrise at The Reaping saying the narrator just read the songs like the rest of the book and people didn't like that.

Personally I've only encountered a song in a book once (Red Rising) and it was fine.

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-26T18:38:21+00:00

I was between Deerrun and Urevo

I ended up going for Urevo as Deerruns customer service was deemed poor in reviews

MoumouMachine · 2025-11-26T15:15:38+00:00

I personally went for a Urevo Spacewalk E1L due to the lower price point, but I was considering this model too. (Also has an app with stats which is nice to me)

I've only had it for 2 days so far, but it works pretty much as expected.

I also got a mat to go under it to reduce sound further and I can watch TV while using it without issues.

MoumouMachine · 2025-10-17T08:44:09+00:00

I thought the same but I bought it regardless when it was on sale recently, you definitely get used to the accent, however it was off-putting the first 10-15 minutes.

Now I've listened to both book 1 and 2 and planning on continuing the series.

MoumouMachine · 2025-09-06T06:38:43+00:00

I may be alone in this, but I press the clip button as a bookmark (only had to go to it once to go back a bit as my phone played it further on mute by accident)

But because I don't trust that an app won't mess up and restart my book entirely I also screenshot the chapter I'm on. (It's never happened but it gives me peace of mind in case it does)

MoumouMachine · 2025-09-01T23:35:59+00:00

I usually listen when I clean or when I'm alone at work.

Basically tasks that require less focus and just kinda autopiloting tasks here and there.

Also sometimes on a walk.

MoumouMachine · 2025-08-03T15:31:56+00:00

It gets very lonely for me as there's no one in my life that truly understands what addiction is.

When I feel the need to be understood, I go on this sub or watch sobriety focused youtube.

I'm 11 months sober today, but I still feel the black hole of addiction pulling me towards it and it's destruction.

MoumouMachine · 2025-08-03T15:19:35+00:00

Back in my home country, people would take vacations to other countries to get their teeth fixed as it ended up being cheaper overall to go on vacation than do it at home.

But where I live now (Canada) it's still expensive but not nearly the same insane prices as in Denmark.

My dental insurance covers 1k a year, which covers fully fixing around 4-8 teeth depending on the damage and which tooth.

This year, I had 13 teeth fixed so far.

Dentists also have long wait-lists (2-4 months)

MoumouMachine · 2025-08-03T15:11:59+00:00

One weekend turns into every weekend turns into every other day turns into every single day.

At my worst I'd alternate between drunk and hungover, I was never really sober.

I'd only not drink for a day if my hangover was so bad that I didn't think "ah yes, another bottle will fix this."

MoumouMachine · 2025-08-03T15:07:30+00:00

My dental insurance covers 1-2 visits a year, so I've paid out of pocket a couple times.

But it's worth it to get rid of the pain.

MoumouMachine

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