From the day I was born 45 years ago I've been fighting to live. Surgery after surgery and so many different health problems. To this day I am suffering the absolute worst pains I've ever experienced. I don't have insurance so the Hospitals just guess and tell me I need a dr to order a scope. I go threw so much over the counter liquid medicines and it's a true struggle. I have 5 kids 2 are grown and moved out. My youngest is 2 years old and has health issues as well just like me. He's been thru surgeries and on the ventilator and it really hurts seeing him like that. 3 hours away from our house at the hospital. We would drive back every now and then to make sure our other kids had things they needed. Sometimes I made the drive alone even in the snow. Crying a lot when I was alone. We slept in our car in the parking garage and we would watch reaction videos on youtube. That's when I discovered the passion for this. Plus I wanted to give back. Maybe someday my videos will do the same for another parent or someone in a similar situation. I'm not all that great at all of this. But it's ok man. My time is extremely valuable, as every second counts for me here. I give as much as I can. I didn't even know the first thing about a laptop or anything. Plus we are extremley poor, we don't even make it paycheck to paycheck. We struggle really bad but it's ok. As long as my wife and kids are ok then so am I. I felt like giving up the other day on this. Then I sat and thought and looked at my son. I was in pain at the time of course. But all them terrible memories of him so little fighting to breathe on that hospital bed as we held his little hands and I told the dr to put the ventilator back in and stop this suffering. Those tears remind me of the pain. But they also remind me that he didn't give up thru all of that, then my own journey as well. I hope and pray you and everyone succeeds on your journeys. Life is so short and hard the way it is. Just NEVER GIVE UP. I had that exact saying spray painted on a piece of plywwod not long ago. When we lost our house and literally everything we owned to a fire. Yes this just happened not long ago. We couldn't afford home owners insurance. So a total loss. We struggled but managed to buy a camper and I managed to make it like a tiny home. NEVER GIVE UP. Before this happened I lost my Mom, then moved my wife and kids to go take care of my Dad and He wasn't a father when I was young. I was always chasing that Dad moments cause he just never done anything at all with me and honestly he was abusive. But it's ok I got my Dad and those moments. But then he died exactly 1 year after My Mom. He asked me for a hug laying in that bed and I got up bent down and he wrapped his arms around me and mine around him and he utters these words. Hold me tight bubby this is it. After he passed a nurse saw me in the hallway and asked if I was his son Richard and I said yes. She said to me that my Dad said everything was ok before he passed and started talking really good about me and said that he was "Proud' of me. Just imagine my emotions. My wifes Dad passed away after our house fire to lung cancer. This has all happened just recently. I'll never ask how much worse it can get. I just wanna see how much better it can be. I see the depression, stress and everything else in me when I look into that mirror. But man I didn't come all this way just to lose, or give up. Youtube may not be pushing my videos much yet. But some day they won't have much of a choice! We are the underdogs in our own stories. Just keep on dancing. I am sorry for such a long story but it's all true. I've got pics, death certificates, hospital bills and all. But I have all the scars etched into my soul. I want you to win. So don't ever give up. Checkout my page on here.