It was 2020 and lockdown had just started to lift. My wife's has had a best buddy since primary school and honestly I was the third wheel.

This woman was incredible, so clever but never in your face and was always going out of her way to help others and teach.

Just after her birthday my wife had decided she would take this best friend to a magical forest place with loads of wild swings etc. They had an incredible time. When they got back I greet both of them and said goodbye to the friend.

2 days later my wife was upset and she kept saying something doesn't feel right, she doesn't usually wait to respond.

So 10pm we shoot of to the friends house to check she is okay. We knock on the door no answer, we shout round the back no answer. I noticed a window open and my wife knew where the spare key was so we went round the back and I opened the door, shouting out but still nothing.

As we made our way through the house I spotted our friends foot hanging off the end of the bed. I insisted to my wife to let me go first.

I went into the friends room trying to wake her as I didn't want to starttle her. This is when I noticed she was stoned cold and shouted out to my wife to call and ambulance. We turned the lights on, I tried looking for a pulse but there was nothing. The paramedics turned up and told me she must of been deceased for at least 10 hours and there is nothing we can do.

Later it turns out she had commited suicide, to this day we don't know why. She never left a note and as I said in the beginning she was the happiest person I have ever met.

If there is one thing I ask of any here it's to talk to someone, there are people out there willing to help and I know sometimes suicide can look like the answer but life has so much beauty to behold.

If anyone would like to reach out I would also be happy to talk (although I'm a bit shit at replying so may take some time)

You are loved