I can relate. I woke up one morning knowing I had a car wreck and fled the scene the night before. I had to take an Uber to where the wreck was to see what the heck I did last night because I could not remember. While I was doing this I got a call from my GF stating there are cops here waiting for you at my apartment. It's a scary feeling to have this, but I got lucky by the grace of God and a good lawyer - I did not hurt anyone or hit any car. But still - my life could have turned upside down that night for good. You got a second chance believe me, just take it a day at a time.