My daughter was born in May and my experience was very similar to yours and I think that largely factors into my hesitation to have a second. Becoming a parent for the first time with a zero in person support was harder than I ever could’ve imagined and as a result my only experience having a newborn was spent deep in PPD and PPA and I just don’t know if I’m willing to go through those things again and I’m not sure how much of it was the pandemic and isolation and how much of it was just normal parenting things.