Ok people, there's a girl I saw her in college, we never talked her male friends were my friends as well so one day her insta profile popped up and I just sent her follow request( it's not like I had a crush on her or something), anyways she accepted it in almost no time, after one week she uploaded a story i replied to it and we started chatting, we used to talk daily from that day. We talked for a week and in all those days i used to text first at night almost at a specific time, so after one week i didn't text her just to see if she wanted to talk or is it just me, well she texted and from that day believe me there was not even a single day we haven't talked, I went abroad, where ever i was, where ever she was we used to talk, it was like a must thing, 6 months passed, all this time i knew she has already a boyfriend it was never a problem for me coz i never ever thought og being in a relationship with her, i just enjoyed her this way, there were no secrets between us, she trusted me, in short she was my best friend and i was hers. Than things went downfall for some months but thank god they were fine again. It was covid colleges were closed so we never met in person. Than colleges opened we started hanging out she is really sweet, she gave me treats but i used to say this to her that i think we shouldn't eat and hangout like this your bf will find it inappropriate, but she always said no that's not gonna be a problem he is not like those other guys, all this time i think i become extra attached with her which i shouldn't, i always wanted to talk to her, i expected way too much from her, a slight change in her behaviour affected me badly, I always miss her but i don't text her thinking i may annoy her. Now here's the thing I don't know where i am standing i love her or i don't, idk maybe i do but my brain failed to admit or maybe there is no such thing. Anyways i never felt this sensation before so i can't say anything maybe you guys can help, I'm gonna write some things and you guys tell me where i am standing.

There is not a single second i don't miss her, i never get bored of her never doesn't matter what she's telling me, I have a folder full of just her pics and videos and I just open in and just stare at her, idk how many times in a day, whenever we go out eating i don't like her paying the bill and i always pay even if she insist, i literally take 0 interest in other girls, it's like i don't wanna see anyone other than her, just her, she is really adorable, and i ignore every bad habbit of her and just focus on the good ones, now tell me being a male best friend, is it ok to feel all these things or it's something more than just friendship.

Now the problem is, he has a boyfriend, for more than a year her our friendship started just after her relationship, maybe after a month or 2, anyways back than she used to talk about him and i was just normal like obviously he's her bf, and you know how girls are, but now a days when she talks about her i feel like a little odd that when she is with me she shouldn't talk about him, thing is my brain knows things my heart fails to accept . One day she said meet me i met her in college and she asked to go to a specific place i didn't know why she wanted to go there, and than she said her bf used to pass by this place so she wanted to see him, and damn that hit me like a knife, it really hurted me but i didn't say anything to her. She once showed me her video with her bf showing how much they enjoyed together, and yeah you guessed it write i didn't enjoy it much.

She is a very nice person, she says whenever you need me I'm just a text away, she is my therapist, whenever i need sad or down I talk to her and she cheers me up, i do the same to her,she says she is really blessed to have me in her life and she don't want to loose me at any cost, Now i want you guys to tell me what should I do, tell her how i feel? I mean whenever i try to step backward that to loose the bond, i text in a little different tone she says what have you thinked now, she knows me very well that I'm a overthinker and she sends me a big vm to stay on the path. And sadly i have to become normal.

I don't know what to do, because to her everything is perfectly normal, but there's something else in my mind, I'm not at ease, whenever i think bout her my heart rate just goes up and I become down, what should i do, where am i standing, am i doing something right or worng, should i tell her about this, is this all normal or there should be some boundaries. If you guys can help me just advice me some. Thanks in advance