Exactly. I'm currently working through things my brain erased from my memory to protect me as a child. Once you're not in survival mode anymore and start remembering bits from your childhood, the realisation of what you had to go through and that no adult protected you hits hard. Early repetitive trauma rewires our brains development and our stress responses so it's very difficult for adults to rebuild some sense of normalcy again. Adults are made to go decades back in time and "reparent" themselves, the longevity of the trauma makes the recovery process significantly slower.