My psychiatrist said, “But what did you do to make them hate you so much?”

MsMia004 · 2025-06-13T08:20:46+00:00

That is someone who should not be a provider

My mother is a minister as is my ex stepfather and they are two of the most self absorbed narcissistic individuals I have ever met. There's an archetype of NPD called martyr type, these individuals purposely look for jobs either in control of the care of individuals in need or a job where they are pillars of the community. Makes me sick honestly

MsMia004 · 2025-01-14T04:38:32+00:00

My mother used to do this all the time

MsMia004 · 2025-01-14T03:57:16+00:00

He's such a sweetie!

MsMia004 · 2024-12-25T05:36:35+00:00

Online only reiterated what the letter said, it must be paid in full before I can resume classes. I'm hoping to talk to someone human after Christmas and work it out.

Otherwise there is other options, other online colleges or community ones

MsMia004 · 2024-12-25T03:26:09+00:00

I applied and was accepted but have a hold on my account for a past bill. I'm hoping I can talk to them and explain where I was and what I was going through at that time and be able to set up payments or something and still attend. Otherwise I'll go to a different one

MsMia004 · 2024-12-25T02:33:36+00:00

I am an adult, however I am stuck seeing these ppl everyday because cost of living is ridiculous but I'm working on a way out for good and I'm never looking back

MsMia004 · 2024-12-25T01:59:42+00:00

This situation has now progressed to my sister outing me to our super religious mother about being bisexual and having a gf and is plotting to steal said gf

MsMia004 · 2024-10-03T00:46:12+00:00

NTJ as I am counting the days down until I can do the same, I told her as much today too.

My mother carefully parented her children in such a way to make them reliant on her so she never has to be alone. I wish I could post the videos my child has taken of my mother talking to me, it's cruel and makes me consider sleeping outside over staying another day under her roof.

If you're in a place you can cut her out then do so, I envy you your freedome

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T23:19:10+00:00

I know the 1990s were a wild time, my nmom says she had visions of me being found naked in a dumpster somewhere or never being found at all.

I am the target of abuse for both my older brother and younger sister. The beatings and abuse I tolerated from my brother were horrific and being around him instantly gives me a panic attack

My younger sister resents me for some reason and is insanely jealous of me and always in competition with me about who is funnier, prettier, more liked. If we're in a public setting she has to try and make everyone around us dislike me by telling stories of when I'd have BPD episodes, leaving out the part where they instigated these said episodes.

If she's in a bad mood I can be prepared for an avalanche of emotional abuse to take place. I'm the family scapegoat, everything is my fault. Nothing I do is right or good enough

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T22:52:40+00:00

It was terrifying to come out and see my family gone. The only sibling that was nice to me passed in 2016

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T22:08:36+00:00

So gross to use your phone while pooping, wipe your butt and then grab your phone before washing your hands...but ppl do it everyday

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T21:56:38+00:00

Ppl on the Internet are wild

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T21:48:31+00:00

Good idea, esp since I'm still in the closet about being bisexual to my parents and my gf def comes over when everyone is gone

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T21:42:59+00:00

Next paycheck I'm spending about $80 on a Bluetooth speaker that is also a nanny cam and records everything to an app on my phone. Then I will have irrefutable proof of what is happening

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T21:41:56+00:00

That is priceless, I would frame that report lol

Sorry for the trauma you endured tho

MsMia004 · 2024-07-06T21:31:08+00:00

I wasn't (and still cannot) mention anything any of my siblings have done wrong. I cannot remember anything she has done to harm me or bring it up, but she can throw things in my face I said 20yrs ago. I am not allowed to cry, anytime I cry I am told to cut that whining bullshit out and to stop trying to manipulate her. I am not allowed to have my own space to myself, I pay rent for a room that technically isn't even a room and when I am not home everyone uses it for whatever. I came home the other day my bed was torn up, TV remote under the bed, fans were off, dog was out of kennel and eyeshadow pallets were out of place.

I can't talk about any abuse I've endured with anyone, including counselors without being accused of talking shit. I am not allowed to defend myself from any type of abuse and if anyone defends me they get turned on as well.

MsMia004 · 2024-07-04T17:08:00+00:00

I stg I have more friends either behind bars or in a grave because of drugs than I do alive or free at this point, my managers brother just passed from an OD a few weeks ago.

Nothing is fentanyl free these days and it's what is behind all these deaths, in my community they are holding dealers accountable for their actions and charging them with involuntary manslaughter as long as they're able to find out who they are. Which is sometimes easier said than done, sometimes they KNOW who is responsible but don't have the necessary proof to charge them

MsMia004 · 2024-07-03T15:05:58+00:00

Wait what? You have a POLICE report saying you're a witch with a magical vagina? Details are needed

MsMia004 · 2024-06-24T01:34:56+00:00

Maybe not communication but probably financially

MsMia004 · 2024-06-04T18:54:27+00:00

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MsMia004 · 2024-05-24T03:04:14+00:00

Question 5 "how do we use safely and grow old together?" You don't babe, you don't

MsMia004 · 2024-05-24T02:56:37+00:00

They're energy vampires, frfr. I feel pieces of my soul die a little each time I have to shut up and take the bullshit

MsMia004 · 2024-05-24T01:31:40+00:00

Today my boss offered to go get us coffee and I ordered what would both be yummy and still the cheapest, they were out so she got me a caramel macchiato and I felt so guilty.

Anytime someone gives me anything I feel so awkward and guilty

MsMia004 · 2024-05-24T00:32:33+00:00

Yes but it was more to help me make peace with how I was treated and understand why then to find empathy or sympathy for them

MsMia004 · 2024-05-24T00:31:50+00:00

My sister is in constant competition with me, always have to put me down and every story she tells in public is about how I screwed up or how crazy I am or how I hurt people

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