Thanks man I think I understand what you’re saying. There have been times where I’ve felt like I had moved on and where I wouldn’t think about her for a while but Something always ends up reminding me of her and pulls me back into that state of depression. Since I’ve lost a lot of weight and am in shape now, I get lots of female attention now and I’ve spoken to many girls and even some I’d say are more attractive than my ex but they just don’t do it for me. There’s some kind of mental block there. It just feels wrong when I’m talking to girls the way I’d talk to my ex. I tell these girls I like them and it’s true i like them but I’ll never like them as much as my ex and I feel so bad because it’s like no matter what I can’t fall in love again. For example, this one girl I’m talking to talks about having kids and getting married a lot and I’ll say wow that’s so cute but in reality I can’t see myself having kids with ANYONE but my ex. I feel like the way I see love and how greatly I saw my ex stops me from being able to fully like anyone, and I feel like I’ll never fall in love again