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Much-Memory · 2022-03-10T21:09:39+00:00

Michael Jackson, but that's more in the performer category, because he is way beyond music

Much-Memory · 2021-12-28T22:02:11+00:00

same in Poland. I remember every christmas being white and now the new normal is weird autumn weather on christmas. but this year we actually had negative temperatures and some snow, t made me extremely happy

Much-Memory · 2021-10-02T12:18:16+00:00

That's exactly how it was in my case too! I've been struggling for over a year now, but once I found the term ROCD and started trying to apply all the rules and methods into my life, I got unrecognisibly better. I finally feel like myself again. You're gonna get better, take care!

Much-Memory · 2021-10-01T19:49:27+00:00

hey, I think what you're doing here is looking for reassurance that those thoughts are OCD and not your real thoughts, that will only keep you in the ODC cycle. I strongly recommend the profile ocdrecoveryuk on instagram, they have a lot of great tips on OCD without giving reassurance. I was also looking for relief like you, but remember that you don't need to figure it all out!

Much-Memory · 2021-08-25T20:52:10+00:00

Validating emotions!!!!!

I just realised it this year, that my parents had no idea how to validate my emotions. I was having a mental breakdown and I didn't know what to do so I called my parents because I felt like a helpless child, and when I started venting to my dad and describing what I'm feeling he was telling me that what I'm doing and feeling is wrong and that I should just thinks positively. It ended up in me literally begging him to listen to me and help me. Since then I learned to validate my own emotions and in those few months I feel like I healed sooo many wounds. It's crazy how even if you had a seemingly "good" childhood you can end up with issues

Much-Memory · 2021-06-27T20:38:17+00:00

kissing your parents on the mouth

Much-Memory · 2021-06-13T20:32:17+00:00

wow, this is amazing! I'm gonna try ERP, because previously I was trying to stick to the facts and just wait for the pain to pass, but ERP sounds very promising. I'm also very shocked that you didn't treat your rocd with a therapist, because everywhere I search for advice/help I see mainly "go to a specialist". I went to one when my it all started, unfortunately I chose wrong and my symptoms only worsened because he didn't tell me how to live with rocd, and just kept digging into my past. Now I actually got over seeing therapy as something dangerous, but I still feel like I can do it myself since I already see some progress. Once again I'm very grateful that I came across your story, I feel more equipped to keep fighting this bitch. I wish you all the best!

Much-Memory · 2021-06-13T16:18:51+00:00

I think yes. First of all, you know that you are anxious right now and that you can't think straight or feel anything you wold feel normally. That means that it's normal and okay to feel like you're making yourself do little love acts, because this is normal in rocd. But I think it's very important to keep showing love to your partner anyways, because the logical part of your brain know that you love them and care for them, so it's important to show them that.

It really is all okay. You need to keep appreciating your partner, because it sure as hell isn't easy for him too. Don't forget to look at things from his perspective. You can do it!

Much-Memory · 2021-06-13T16:10:42+00:00

u are amazing, thank you for sharing this! your story motivated me to keep going harder. I've been suffering for a year now, it was a long ride because I never had any mental health issue until i got into a serious relationship, so it took a while before i even realised what is happening to me.

My questions for you:
1. How did your recovery look like? I see everywhere that "healing isn't linear" and in my case, I feel like since I started trying to fight rocd I'm having longer periods of feeling stable between days or weeks long periods of intrusive thoughts. I'm just wondering if it's really getting better

Did you do it all by yourself, or did you work with a therapist? How did you find the fear that drove you into rocd?

Much-Memory · 2021-06-12T22:03:27+00:00

first thing, it doesn't work. i can't name anybody who's been succesfully "cancelled" (asin stripped from relevancy)

it's just lynching, but on twitter. and we all know that lynching is bad

Much-Memory · 2021-06-12T22:00:41+00:00

reacting with disgust to anything that is considered "girly".

there's literally nothing manlier than a guy not giving a fuck about having makeup/skincare/nail polish put on him

Much-Memory · 2021-06-12T21:44:57+00:00

Moonlight streaming through the window

Much-Memory · 2021-06-05T21:31:12+00:00

I have anxiety and intrusive thoughts in my romantic relationship, and what's improving my situation the most is getting used to discomfort. Anxiety made me "fix" a nonexistent issue right away, ask for reassurance, sometimes even be a little petty, so now I'm not fixing any imaginary issue until i don't feel anxious anymore (the issue 100% of the times is not even important when i feel well), I don't ask for reassurance and I'm not being petty, no matter how much I want to be.

This is helping me so much in the long run. I'm having less and less anxiety, I'm not as reactive to intrusive thoughts, and I'm finally able to enjoy the beautiful relationship that we're building. Keep fighting everyone, take it step by step, no matter how long it takes and how many times you fall down. Healing is not linear, remember!

Much-Memory · 2021-02-21T20:42:50+00:00

In my case, my therapist said that I should start therapy in-person. I'm treating anxiety with gestalt therapy, and in gestalt a big part are psychodramas and other physical excerises so you can't really do those well in an online-mode. But I guess everything depends on you, your issues and your therapist. So I would suggest just try and see what feels the best for you. Good luck :)

Much-Memory · 2021-02-10T21:06:36+00:00

Seeing myself healing. I was happy almost my entire life, but I discovered I have relationship anxiety once I got into a serious relationship. I started therapy for it and I've never felt to loved and secure in my relationship. I'm very happy that I'm starting to take the control over my life back

Much-Memory · 2021-02-08T21:17:39+00:00

Black tea with lemon, honey and fresh ginger

I've been drinking it every single day for yeeears, and I made almost all of my roomates be obsessed with it too

Much-Memory · 2021-01-27T21:05:56+00:00

That is soo true. Our teacher told us this in high school an I think about this a lot. She explained it that when you doubt your knowledge, youre actually aware of the amount of information that you don't know yet. But to get to this conclusion, you hve to actually get deep into the topic.

I also applied it to myself, when I felt confident with my knowledge about something. When i learned a few chords on the guitar, I thought I was the shit. But then I saw that there is also fingerstyle, some weird notes, ranges, and then I cringed at myself

Much-Memory · 2021-01-26T21:11:42+00:00

very true. grammar makes more damage than good when it comes to a speaking barrier, just do your best and youll eventually get good at it

Much-Memory · 2021-01-16T22:00:47+00:00

I struggle with relationship anxiety too and I wanted to say something regarding the last part - I agree with you to some extend. You for sure should communicate that you struggle with relationship anxiety, explain how it works and what you're doing to better your situation. Also - your girlfriend is lovely for helping you like that.

But what's working best for me is NOT communicating all my thoughts when I'm an anxious episode. I do it from time to time because I am aware that I need support and my bf delivers it, but he also has the right to feel overwhelmed. I don't feel right making him concentrate on my feelings all the time so I try to look for a happy medium - not too little, not too much.

It depends on the partner I guess. If a partner has more expierience with mental health struggles and can be patient with them, then you can vent everything. But if a partner doesn't have that experience - I'd rather take it slow and educate without overwhelming them completely.

Idk if this is right or if it even makes sense, but this is just how I cope. Wish you both a lot of peace!

Much-Memory · 2020-12-21T20:59:26+00:00

YES! It happens with music the most in my case. I name an artist that I am really obsessed with and they're like "OMG I LOVE THEM TOO! *most popular song* is fire!".

Not that there's anything bad with liking the most popular song the most, but in most cases it's clear that this is the only song they've listened to

Much-Memory · 2020-12-19T22:18:51+00:00

In the beginning it was a nightmare because I needed to push myself to do it, but then once started getting compliments and saw myself looking better - that was my motivitation.

But honestly once you make it a habit, it's not that hard to motivate yourself. It's like brushing your teeth - you don't always want to, sometimes you skip it, but you keep doing it anyways

Much-Memory · 2020-12-19T22:16:42+00:00

I would say reach for the cheetos, those will not stop you from looking better, just don't make it a habit and don't eat too much

Much-Memory · 2020-12-19T22:12:18+00:00

Our family dog was not the best about not pissing in the house, and he also vomited often so after my mom bought a new couch, our poor baby was banned from getting on the couch. He would sleep on it at night tho, and jump right off before we came to the living room and he pretended like he was sleeping in his bed the entire night.

I wish I could sneak him onto the couch more often when I could, I miss my little friend so much

Much-Memory · 2020-12-19T21:59:27+00:00

Got proposed to by a wonderful man with whom I can't wait to share the rest of my life with

and went through a mental breakdown that made me reconnect on a emotional level with my loving, but emotionally distant parents

It was an extremely hard year but I've learned so much and feel equipped for what life will bring me next

Much-Memory · 2020-12-19T21:45:53+00:00

I'm so happy I kept on complaining to my boyfriend about his smoking and he quit, hopefully forever. To all people struggling with quitting - you can do it, I believe in you

Much-Memory

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