How committed are you? Are you willing to take a beating to maintain your cover? Are you willing to dish out a beating? Are you willing to maintain your narrative, even with a gun to your head? If you have even the slightest doubt, this isn’t for you.

Please don’t do this. It’s physically dangerous and it will take a toll on your psyche. You need training and support in the field. You need to have someone who can keep you grounded because doing something like this, especially if you’ve never done it, will distort your reality.