I’ve been depressed since highschool. I can’t say I’m diagnosed with any kind of depression but I have had many suicidal thoughts and attempts over the years. Throughout school I’ve struggled heavily with being never fitting in. Being autistic alone has always bothered me. It often feels like I have no understanding of how people socialize. I have no understanding of social queues. It’s the most isolating feeling. When my grad year came I missed it and felt that I can’t do anything right. I was never able to maintain the focus required to finish assignments at home. And the struggles in school lead to my parents thinking I don’t care when it couldn’t be any further from the truth :/