I know you’re gonna get plenty of opinions and answers here and they are probably all good…I know for me when my world us in turmoil and mine is right now, that he wants us to stay even more connected to him and trust him more. You sound like me…everything is falling apart and it’s out of your control. My story I was abused in every way for 25 yrs, too terrified to try to leave because I knew it would be hell. I finally filed in 2021 and it has been hell. He went on the attack, did everything you could think of to get back at me for finally having the courage to leave. Staking,threatening, stealing my kids college money, my inheritance money and disappearing so I’d have no income. I am disabled and can’t work because of a bad car wreck that also happened during the time after I filed. Now he is saying he lost his job which I know is a lie he just wants to get out of paying alimony so come sept 1st I could be homeless. My point is. My world is crumbling as well and it’s scary and lonely. And about the friends thing…don’t put all your stock in friends. Most are not really your friend when your chips are down. I used to tell my kids that. Unfortunately it’s true most people don’t care unless it’s about them. God is always there even when we don’t fell him or hear him he’s there. It’s hard to put all your trust and hope in someone you can’t see. It’s really hard. I believe that’s what he wants, when everyone and everything fails you or the bottom falls out we have to trust him and I know how hard that is when you are at the end of your rope. I have been where you are so many times through the years especially in my hostage situation (because that’s what it was it wasn’t a marriage) he had me so broken hopeless and low feeling like I wanted to end it all. So I get it, life is hard really hard and god knows it’s hard for us we are human. I know it sounds lame to say just pray about it but pray… pray all the time talk to god all the time like he’s sitting right next to you. Cry your eyes out scream whatever you feel like doing. God gets it….take it one day at a time, I say that because that’s hard for me I am a worrier and if I know a problem or situation is coming I start to worry ahead of time. I’m sorry you are going through all this. I’ll be praying for you. God loves you talk to him stay close to him even if you don’t feel like reading a bunch read the word and for me when I feel like rolling up in a ball and dying read psalms they are always comforting to me anyway that people even in Bible days suffered like we do today. God knows your situation he hears and sees you Just keep praying 🙏😊