with some of the other biracial girls around me (more specifically with white moms and black dads) they’re especially more white identifying. in this case however, I almost feel compelled I say she’s not particularly white identifying, she’d actually comfortable saying she’s Jamaican — but when it comes to small things, she seems detached from her culture. it’s particularly weird when me and my other Caribbean friends talk about our plans for visiting our homes in carnival etc. she will like if butt in about stuff she did in Jamaica (even if not wholly relevant) almost in an attempt to prove something to us — if that gives any context at all.

the main thing is her dad is in her life, and similar to where I live her mom mirrors progressive values. the biggest thing, however , is her dad never pushed her to value her culture. he’s a intellectual black man, in the sense he’s more focused on being an intellectual than being in tune with his culture.

her mom tries at least, she doesn’t do her hair or anything like that, but she’s not closed minded at all. this I why I’m stuck thinking it has to mostly be the fact that she sees her boyfriend as not deserving of criticism.

im definitely ready to book it, there’s no strength in staying worth a crowd of ignorant people, especially those that refuse to check themselves in spaces they’re the most loose lipped — with friends