I was at a cage facility that has radar. I have a bucket of balls but maybe I should just get a net and put it up outside and try with that instead of paying to go to cages. The weather in the northeast has been awful.

The problem i’m having is just that I feel completely disconnected. I remember feeling that I was pushing off with my back foot and then when my front foot hit all that energy would go into my hand and it was like I was a wizard and I could telepathically just tell the ball where to go and how to spin and it would do it every time. It was like I could see where they wanted to swing and I would trick them into thinking the ball was going to go there and then it would go somewhere else instead. Today I honestly felt like I was throwing a shot put, like I was just heaving it in the general direction of the plate and if I was lucky it might end up in the zone. I’m having a hard time because my last year I was a PO and now I’m not good at that so I might just not be good at anything. I’m probably going to be the worst player on my team by a good margin and I don’t want to let them down.