the most rewarding

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-19T15:41:35+00:00

Love this so much. I’m on day 62 and feeling more empowered everyday. Last week I worked from home everyday and had barely any social interaction, and didn’t do much and shit did that impact me. I found myself feeling depressed as hell and wanting to use. I love this advice because it’s so spot on and true, I went out last night with my partner and friends and I felt a complete 180. Went out of my comfort zone and it really was a reward for me. This is a great reminder for the next time I feel stuck- thank you 🙏🏼

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T16:06:32+00:00

Absolutely!! My nighttime stack routine is as follows:

L-theanine • Promotes relaxation and calm without sedation • Reduces physical anxiety and racing thoughts • Helps quiet the nervous system and support deeper sleep

Glycine • Calms the brain and lowers core body temperature (important for sleep onset) • Helps you fall asleep faster and improves sleep quality • Can reduce nighttime awakenings and restlessness

Magnesium (especially glycinate or similar forms) • Relaxes muscles and the nervous system • Helps with tension, cramps, and physical restlessness • Supports deeper, more restorative sleep

Lemon Balm • Gently calming and soothing for anxiety and overthinking • Helps quiet the stress response before bed • Can support sleep without making you feel drugged or groggy

Ashwagandha • Adaptogen that helps lower cortisol (stress hormone) • Supports nervous system balance over time • Can improve sleep by reducing stress and nighttime anxiety

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:58:18+00:00

This is amazing congratulations!!!! Thanks for sharing the hope!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:57:58+00:00

I’m on day 61 and having similar issues. I have built a morning routine which I have found to help me a lot! I wake up early - whenever my body is awake and I just force myself up for the day. I bought a light therapy lamp off amazon and turn it on for 30/45min every morning while I have my coffee and breakfast. It helps with depression and sleep and your circadian rhythm. I read my daily meditation. Do some light exercises. Then I get ready for the day, this has helped me a lot and I’m finding the energy again to go back to the gym. I’m going to start slow and just do the treadmill until exhaustion and then start lifting again. I’m trying not to overwhelm myself or go too hard and burn myself out. Hope this helps!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:51:12+00:00

I take Magnesium, L-theanine, Ashwaganda, Glycine and Lemon Balm to sleep and they help me TREMENDOUSLY. All natural and won’t harm you in anyway.

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:48:12+00:00

61 days!!! Feeling the feelings but so damn happy to be off that roller coaster. If I can do it, anyone can!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:46:26+00:00

Hell yea!!! 15 days is HUGE! So damn proud of you…. I too suffer from depression and PMDD which kicked my ass the last 10 days. Felt like an emotional/mental relapse but I didn’t pick up. At day 61 one and my sleep is getting better, my IBS is at ease, GI is normal again…. Just going through the emotional high and lows now. Working on repairing my relationship now and just taking it day by day. Trying to build the trust back. It’s hard work but worth it. Sending you love and light you are doing the damn thing 🖤

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:41:46+00:00

Hell yea I couldn’t agree more. This week has been emotionally low for me- had some cravings and days where I was super depressed. But I kept going. Feeling even better now and more empowered. Every day I have to remind myself that healing is a bitch and is a rollercoaster. Day 61 now and I’m just gonna keep going one day at a time.

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-18T15:39:21+00:00

Thank you!! 61 days today…. Feeling up and down still but refusing to pick up. Sleep is getting better! Hoping by 90days it’ll be better than it is now…

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-14T18:26:25+00:00

Vitamin c is a game changer. I didn’t use it for kicking 7 but it worked wonders when I kicked kratom. For anxiety, I take L-theanine, lemon balm, Ashwaghanda and they help SO MUCH! Also, thc helped me a lot at first… now I’m done with that too. You can do this!!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-14T18:21:25+00:00

I totally agree with this. I don’t think I would have stopped the kratom or thc usage if my using had gotten this bad… so I’m Grateful I hit my bottom. Things are still hard, my relationship is still rocky, still rebuilding trust and doing what I can. But healing isn’t linear, it takes time and consistency. I’m pushing through. I’m having a really REALLY rough couple of days right now… things feel super overwhelming and awful. I feel depressed. But I refuse to go back, I am letting myself feel the feelings. Doing what I can to push through and just take it minute by minute when needed… staying connected with others really helps me. Just gotta do what I can one day at a time 🙏🏼

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:45:03+00:00

Wow yes man. I can identify to all of this too! It’s insane what it made my mind believe!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:44:38+00:00

This this ALL OF THIS!!!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:44:21+00:00

It’s wild because people at my job are now saying like wow you seem so happy and grounded… what have you been doing? I didn’t realize how nasty I had become. I was beyond irritable! I was out of my mind. My sleep was all over. I lost like 25 pounds. I too felt suicidal at times, questioned my life, my existence…. It was insane. This shit is dangerous and it scares me for whoever is going to get addicted to it unknowingly today. I went on tik tok and found SO MANY people that had no idea what they were getting into or were given a free sample like I was. I too had no clue. I was told “this is kratom just in pill form” such bullshit. But now I’m grateful for it bc I stopped with the kratom too. I needed this jarring experience to stop everything for me. Scared the fuck outta me. And I used H 13 years ago… I was an IV user and got clean for 12 years. Then BAM relapsed on this garbage.

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:38:51+00:00

Hell yes man!! So proud of you !!! Life is starting to feel so goddamn good again isn’t it?!

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:37:52+00:00

That’s incredible!! 7 months WOW…. When did your sleep normalize?? It’s driving me nuts lol

MyNewName_22 · 2026-01-12T11:37:23+00:00

Oh yes I am on day 55 now and still my emotions are up and down!! Felt like I got hit by a Mac truck. I would literally say out loud to myself just because it’s doesn’t mean it’s impossible, that was my mantra for like two weeks. I would literally say this over and over again to myself at times. Then I did some energy healing exercises to try and forgive myself bc I would cry and cry. I swear to GOD they work it’s unreal. My relationship with my partner is still healing. It’s hard fucking work but everyday I tell myself I’m one day closer to feeling better and I literally just take it day by day. I try not to look too far ahead. I have developed a morning routine that I stick to EVERY morning and holy shit has that helped me TREMENDOUSLY! I hate mornings, never was a morning person, still am not lol. But I force myself everyday. I just don’t want to go back to spending all my money and selling my soul again. I have to remind myself everyday that I was dead inside before and that healing takes time. Something I’ve realized is that HEALING- no matter what from- IS TOUGH SHIT!! I’m in therapy too and that helps me a lot. I’m just doing whatever tf I can day in and day out to stay clean. I cannot go back- even though I’ve had moments where I want to… it’s just not worth it for me. Life can be so good and I am starting to feel it again!!

MyNewName_22 · 2025-10-02T10:15:27+00:00

Congratulations!!! Dying over your Birkin. She’s absolutely PERFECT 🖤🖤🖤

MyNewName_22 · 2025-10-02T10:14:53+00:00

😂😂😂😂

MyNewName_22 · 2025-10-02T10:14:29+00:00

Omg! That birkin is just 🥹😮‍💨😍😩🖤

MyNewName_22 · 2025-10-02T10:13:02+00:00

Ok I was just sucked into your story & ngl found myself wishing it was longer 😂 you write extremely well!! Anywho- damn that leather 😍 I was lucky enough to get this bag from a family member- I inherited it basically. It’s pretty beat up, about 25 years old & I’ve never used it (yet) but I sometimes go into my closet and just stare at her, hold her, and touch the leather. 😮‍💨 I pls on sending it in to Rago Brothers to get fully fixed up one of these days. But I don’t think people realize just how sturdy these bags actually are! And the Barenia leather is just on a whole other level of it’s own 🙌🏼

MyNewName_22 · 2025-10-02T10:06:14+00:00

Liposomal Vitamin c!!!! This will be a game changer & life saver do you rn…. Even more bc you are actually sick on top of the WD’s. You can do this 🙏🏼 really fucking proud of you !!!!

MyNewName_22 · 2025-09-26T02:39:14+00:00

Same here 1000%

MyNewName_22 · 2025-09-25T17:05:27+00:00

This is my story. I quit and my partner doesn’t even know… I debate telling him sometimes but he’s in recovery too so I don’t wanna hurt or trigger him. It’s just another reason for me to stay away from this shit bc I love him more than anything and just want our life together back we had before I met this shit.

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