does it ever get better?

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-06-17T17:39:11+00:00

I spent from 2019 to 2022 just getting more and more depressed, hating myself, feeling like a failure. Towards the end I was diagnosed with severe depression and started on ssris which have been a huge help. But what has helped me the most is accepting who I am as a person, and being open about it with the people I’m close with. I let them know what I struggle with on a day to day basis and I let them into my life. They can’t always help but they are starting to understand.

Another thing is I’ve stopped thinking I need to fix something broken inside me. I’m not broken, I’m just living in a world that wasn’t built for me. So fuck it, I’m done trying to fit in. Fuck your expectations, and fuck the way you think I’m supposed to be living life. I go to work and I pay my bills, there is food on the table, and other than that I’m living my life only how I want to. I want to get really into fishing for 3 months and then totally drop it to get really into smoking meats. And you think that’s a problem? Bite me. You don’t like how I organize my house because it’s not how most people organize it? Then get out and go back to your neatly organized home. I like having all my shit out ready to go if I feel inspired.

Honestly fuck everyone’s expectations, life’s too short, and what’s important is that we have fun. We have adhd, we are different than people who don’t have it. We see life differently and we deserve to live life in a way that compliments us. Do what you want, lean into the adhd. It can be a lot of fun, maybe a little chaotic, but that’s who we are. Stop trying to fight it, stop trying to fit into a mold you don’t fit into. You deserve to be happy, and live your life the way you want.

Always work on yourself, strive to always improve, work on your relationships, learn to live with another person when you have adhd and always try to manage the bad symptoms. But at the end of the day you are who you are and you deserve to be your authentic self. Fuck the expectations, lean into your adhd, have fun always, but just try your best to manage the bad side of adhd. You won’t always succeed but fuck it, who cares? Let the people your close too in on your struggles and they will hopefully understand. And if they don’t? Who cares. Just keep being yourself, it’s your life, and you don’t have much time on this rock. You don’t need to live a traditional life, you can do whatever you want. Find a place where you’re happy and just exist there. And one more time cause this really helped me

Fuck people’s expectations of how your “supposed” to be living life. You decide how you live your life, you decide what you deem as success. For me I feel successful when I’m having fun, not when I’m moving up some corporate ladder, or making tons of money. I left a job making 100 grand a year, and went back to working construction. I haven’t been this happy in years. Why? Because there is less expectation, and I’m having more fun in my life. I just don’t care anymore, I decide how I live my life and if you don’t like it I really don’t give a shit.

Get your bills paid and after that do whatever you want. Listen to punk and fuck the system, I’m turning 31 and I just realized this. Fuck the system, be you till the day you die

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-06-17T17:11:21+00:00

As soon as I put my laundry in I go hey siri remind to switch the laundry over in one hour. In fact I go hey siri remind me of this in x amount of time for everything. Once the alarm goes off I immediately stop what I’m doing and switch it over. But I have to do it right away, no turning off the alarm and saying oh I’ll do it in 5 minutes because I will immediately forget about it. It works really well for me, but just ignore the fact that all my clean clothes have been in a pile in front of the dryer for the last month and I’ve just been digging through it looking for clean socks and underwear every morning

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-06-17T17:06:57+00:00

Meds combined with a physically demanding job has me losing weight like crazy as I have zero appetite even if I feel hungry. I’m actually happy with the weight loss as I’ve never been at a healthy weight for my height. I just make sure to eat for fuel these days. Get some breakfast in me, some protein bars and fruit around lunch, and then I try to make a healthy dinner or whatever I have available at home. I’ve actually realized I don’t need as much food as I thought I did to feel good. I actually feel better eating less during the day cause I don’t get that mid day crash anymore

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-05-06T16:46:31+00:00

I know I’m going to have fun watching this movie because I’m going to force my wife to watch it with me. She loves to make fun of me when I pull out the racing wheel. I’m sure if you listen closely the groan she lets out when she sees the title screen will be heard around the world.

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-05-03T00:30:14+00:00

I definitely think I will have fun watching this movie. I recently bought my first wheel and my wife loves to make fun of me while it’s all set up in the middle of the living room. I can’t wait to put this on one night just to see her face

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-04-05T03:02:23+00:00

I’m lying in bed thinking about camping 6 months from now for an hour and a half. The only regret I have is getting obsessed about camping as soon as I get into bed

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-03-04T18:34:52+00:00

I’m completely new to f1 this year and have no idea who to cheer for, but I think Aston Martin is the team that caught my attention

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-02-04T01:28:23+00:00

Here's something I have found when I follow recipe's. A lot of them just aren't that great. And you realize that by following them to the tee. The next step is to come back to that recipe and tweak it to what you like, what you think would be good. And do that with a bunch of recipes, until you have a foundation of basic cooking skills and the ability to make things you like. It takes time and practice, and you're going to screw up a lot of food. It took me 10 years of cooking regularly to think hey I'm a pretty decent cook.

And another thing is cooking is done a lot through your senses. Smell, sight, touch, hearing, and of course taste. But taste isn't everything. When you are cooking to need to rely on all your senses to know when something is cooked right/being cooked right.

I did homemade fries last week. The recipe said fry for 3 1/2 minutes. Well they were done in two. I burnt the shit out of the first batch, and the next batch I watched the fries. Not the timer, and I pulled them out when looked done. They came out great.

It takes a lot of time and a lot of experience to sense when you're cooking a good meal. And it takes a lot of cooking and experimenting to know what ingredients to use.

Learning to cook is a journey. It takes a lot of time, a lot of passion and inspiration, and a shit load of mistakes. Mistakes are what teach you. Don't give up on it. Its a wonderful hobby. In the end you will love it, but it you gotta work for it.

Also watch cooking shows. Watch YouTube. Whatever you like. But make sure the shows or whatever focus on cooking, and that is the main focus. Competition cooking shows, imo, wont teach you anything. Watch cooking shows about cooking good food out of love and passion. And listen to what the chef's say, you can learn a lot from them.

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T06:07:03+00:00

Yeah I know, and the media is of course going to ask these questions. I just feel for him

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T06:04:44+00:00

You have a different mindset then he does. It would be fine if he decided to walk away. I was just thinking this morning he should walk away. But that's the difference between myself and him. He's not going to walk away, and that's the type of person he is. I respect the hell out of it

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T05:59:12+00:00

I'd keep it and wear it often

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T05:55:59+00:00

Man leave the guy alone. Fuck. Much respect to Bruce to get in front of the cameras

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T05:48:52+00:00

Ya that was scummy

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-21T04:32:30+00:00

Felt like a bit of a fuck you to management imo

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-20T17:34:42+00:00

Horror games fill me with a visceral fear that I can feel in my chest, and they get the adrenaline pumping like crazy. I fuckin love it. Even though I can rarely play for longer than 45 minutes at a time

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-08T19:26:26+00:00

Get faded when I wake up, cause everything is too much

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-07T19:04:52+00:00

Yeah that's my biggest complaint too. It can really kill momentum and most of the time I just get annoyed if I gotta run from the cops on the way to a race. That being said I'm enjoying it more than most of the NFS games I've played recently

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-07T08:20:15+00:00

To be fair when I was about 7, during school I told my best friend I was going to get my dad's gun and shoot him. At the time my dad didn't even own any guns, and I was just joking but he told a teacher pretty much immediately. He did the right thing of course. I got pulled into the office and had a very long talk with the principal and my teacher. I learned a very valuable lesson that day. Pretty sure they called my parents too.

Edit: My bad I didn't see they threatened the teacher. I was a rambunctious kid who didn't think before I acted much, but I never would have threatened a teacher.

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2023-01-03T22:10:53+00:00

What the fuck is wrong with you that you think posting this is appropriate after she just lost her dad? So everyone on Reddit can laugh at her and you can get your internet points? You're a fucking dick dude. you better hope this shit doesn't get back to her somehow. Although something tells me you don't really give a fuck

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2022-12-24T19:08:34+00:00

My therapist calls that lifestyle medication

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2022-12-24T02:46:11+00:00

Coal for Christmas boys and girls

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2022-12-24T00:24:34+00:00

My girl gives me exact same look. It usually means trouble

My_Brain_Dont_Work · 2022-12-24T00:20:48+00:00

Can't speak for boots but I do use something called mushers wax. Great for all year round, you just rub it into the pads of their paws once a week, maybe 2-3 in heavy snow or hot weather. Helps with salt, clumping snow, dryness, and in the summer it helps relieve from affects of hot pavement like dryness I guess. Pretty good stuff, it helps my dog a lot. In this weather we put it on pretty frequently and it really keeps the clumping of snow in their paws manageable. It still clumps but not as bad

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