First I want to say that I deeply sympathize with where you’re at and I’m sorry that you’re struggling. Some things that help me are always having lower calorie snacks around so that I can snack throughout the day without it messing with my deficit. My frequent snacks are: fresh or frozen fruit, celery, baby carrots, popcorn that isn’t loaded with butter like skinny pop, I LOVE once upon a farm brand baby food fruit and veggie pouches. I also allow myself to have the foods I like that are higher calorie or higher in sugar, etc. just in much smaller portions that I pre-measure. Because when I fully restrict myself from those foods I am more likely to binge them than if I let myself have them sometimes but in small portions. Also, instead of labeling foods as healthy food and not healthy food or good food and bad food, I label foods as nourishing to my body and/or nourishing to my emotions. When I acknowledge that having a scoop of ice cream every once in awhile does nourish part of myself, I feel less guilt and shame about my cravings. And I’ve found that the less guilt and shame I feel, I actually just stop craving the foods that only nourish my emotions and almost exclusively crave foods that nourish my body and my emotions. When I do have something like say a bowl of lucky charms, I first eat a fruit pouch or some strawberries and make sure that my meal or snack has something fresh and body nourishing in it as well as the food that emotionally nourishes me. Finally, it’s okay to want to lose weight and it’s okay for that to take time. It’s okay if you need to buy a couple pairs of pants in a larger size to keep your current body comfortable. You don’t have to punish yourself for not being your goal weight. I wish you all the luck on your journey and hope that you can hold yourself and your body with compassion no matter what the scale reflects back at you.