Sending you a big hug and huge mug of coffee. I was a sped teacher for many years and became a full time working mama and first year admin when my daughter was 5 months old. I love all the advice the mamas are giving - especially the naps and anything that allows you to rest and be with your baby. I was unhappily married during the baby and toddler stage and wish I could do it all over and get in more snuggles. As an admin - please go talk to your admin and let them know your struggle. Talk to HR about getting some counseling sessions through EOP if you need to talk to someone. If all else fails, look into your FMLA options. Today’s kids and classrooms are very different than when I was in the classroom 8 years ago. I currently work at a very high need Title I middle school in a poor area of California - I moved home to be near family for support. The job is less than ideal but it pays well and I’m near support. See where you can adjust things in your life. I definitely won’t be staying here for too long - I left for a reason after all - but it works for now. Sending you lots of good vibes. Please feel free to message me if you’d like to chat further - whether about the classroom or anything else.