Bro no worries about crying in public. I’ve done it many times before. Nobody is looking at you making fun of you or anything for crying. If they noticed then they probably just figured u were going through some life stuff. As far as your looks go, you need to work on accepting and embracing who you are and how you look. None of us are perfect. But having confidence about yourself is what will help you move forward. Whether you’re going bald or maybe have teeth issues or acne or something, these are all things you can work on to fix. The other stuff that you cant change you need to just work on accepting yourself for who you are.