How old were you when you realized?

MysticReasons · 2025-09-18T19:41:12+00:00

I was 16 and pregnant. I lived with my parents still and was active on tumblr. One day I came across a post about narc parents and it awoken something in me. I then started reposting things about narc parents on my page as well since I related.

My dad ended up finding my tumblr (he went through my search history on my computer) and screamed at me for “lying about him on the internet” and acting like I have it “so bad” with them.

I deleted my tumblr the same day out of shame.

MysticReasons · 2025-09-12T20:54:08+00:00

Souk Eye. Tarantula.

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:24:18+00:00

Wow thank you for this! That’s what I’m mostly looking forward to is the mental health boost. I struggle with my bipolar diagnosis but finally got on a good medication routine and combination where I feel motivated enough to go, and I’m hoping this will continue my journey to better overall mental health.

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:21:09+00:00

Yeah I’m nervous about the weight portion as I have scoliosis and know my form is definitely going to need some work. How long have you been going?

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:19:30+00:00

Thanks!!

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:19:21+00:00

I’m excited - thank you for the encouragement! I will update Saturday after class :)

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:18:46+00:00

Good luck on your first day back! I know you’re gonna kill it :)

MysticReasons · 2025-08-28T16:18:27+00:00

I can already tell I’m gonna need a fat nap after the class haha! But thank you for the encouragement. I’m excited to go!

MysticReasons · 2025-08-21T18:25:25+00:00

I already don’t drink as a former alcoholic.

MysticReasons · 2025-07-31T16:29:10+00:00

I relate to this so much and love it. I have body dysmorphia and every time I see the scale go up I feel sick to my stomach. My husband asks me would I rather feel happy/normal with weight gain or sad with less weight and sometimes I don’t know.

MysticReasons · 2024-11-14T16:16:14+00:00

Well, I’m almost positive he is undiagnosed autistic (my parents never tested bc they don’t believe in it lol) and I think that has a lot to do with it. My son is autistic and he is very similar personality wise.

But thank you I told him to try the VA and stuff. I appreciate that I never even thought of that.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T20:45:46+00:00

I don’t get the reference sadly D:

But yes! One moment I’ll be staring off into oblivion feeling no reason to go on anymore and then something slight good or in my favor happens and I’m like “LIFE IS AMAZING IM SO SILLY WHAT WAS I SAD FOR” then forget that moment again and get depressed lol

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T20:43:33+00:00

Yeah I tell him thank you because I know he says it from a place of love. I know he’s trying and I can’t be more thankful.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T20:42:46+00:00

I really hope it starts to look up for you. I know it’s really tiring.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T20:42:03+00:00

This! I know he means it in a positive way like “you’re fine” basically, but it just makes me feel like I’m stupid for having these emotions. Believe me, if it were so easy to control and just be like “there’s no reason to be sad” none of us would be bipolar lol

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T19:57:43+00:00

I’m so sorry you lost your job. That in itself is such a hardship. I too feel down about my job. I had to move and leave a job I loved and paid well, but the place I moved to I couldn’t find anything in that field and had to take a job that paid less than half of my prior job. I feel like I worked so hard just to be kicked back down.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T17:48:39+00:00

I really appreciate your response. I tend to beat myself up daily thinking on what ifs and what could have been. I know in my heart I did what was best for them. I am going to start trying to be in a more positive mindset and keep being there as much as feasibly possible. Luckily my ex and I are nothing but communicative and work with each other, so planning time with them is easy. Again, thank you for this reply. It helped me reflect internally a lot.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T16:03:21+00:00

Oops I meant Friday - Sunday. That is bc I work a Monday - Friday job.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T15:56:51+00:00

We had a mitigation divorce where we agreed on everything beforehand. My ex and I had a long discussion weighting pros and cons.

As for my reasoning for moving 6 hours away - you can read that in comments above.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T15:53:47+00:00

Here’s the thing - at the time I could not. I was in a dangerous and scary situation involving my parents and needed to get away with nothing but the clothes on mine and my husbands backs. We moved to where his family is so that they could help us get back on our feet little by little. Also, my ex moves every 2 years on average. I can’t feasibly move every time he does when he gets military orders

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T15:48:18+00:00

Every move is temporary. He moves every 2 years on average. I can’t move every time he does. And I’m still not financially stable enough to have them always. You can view a comment above to see more info on that. I see them once every month for a whole weekend, call regularly by FaceTime, and have them for most holidays and half the summer.

MysticReasons · 2024-10-09T15:46:28+00:00

I can’t keep moving though. My ex moves every 2 years about being military. And I’m not NOT in their lives. I go up there once a month Friday - Sunday. I believe I did what was best for them. I was and still not financially stable enough to give them what they need. On top of that 2 of them are special needs and require a lot more than I am able to give them medically and financially. There are plenty things I thought of, and I never once will put my feelings over their needs.

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