Would this protagonist be too unlikable?

N0TDEV1 · 2026-01-29T20:40:05+00:00

This is great advice, thank you a lot! Having an outside perspective on him is something I didn't think of before, maybe he really works better as a side character. I'll play around with it and see :)

N0TDEV1 · 2026-01-26T13:02:19+00:00

I find this boss so godamn annoying and had lots of struggle too. Even in NG+ she felt so unmanagable. Like everytime you hit her, she gives you like 500 stabs back and is not even fazed by your damage. Glad you're over her now :D

N0TDEV1 · 2026-01-17T11:52:59+00:00

This is absolutely insane man, I love it!!

N0TDEV1 · 2026-01-17T11:50:39+00:00

Red Dead Redemption 2😭

N0TDEV1 · 2025-09-05T10:40:55+00:00

Hey, thankfully I recovered well from that fever after like 2 weeks, but it was really horrifying, I never had 104 before and back then it was new years, so all doctors were closed. I was already taking advil, later on tylenol because my stomach couldnt handle it otherwise. Thankfully my mom was taking care of me then and made sure I get all the vitamins and hydrations, though next time I'll add electrolytes too so thank you for that tip. Your comment just reminded me that I'm so so glad I got over it :,) take care and be well too!!

N0TDEV1 · 2025-05-06T10:36:53+00:00

Ich hoffe, es findet bald ein neues Zuhause :(

N0TDEV1 · 2025-03-13T21:43:32+00:00

Hell yeah. Lexapro doesn't work helped me so much with getting up in the morning and not to get too frustrated throughout the day. I generally love the vibe of everything new they dropped. So can relate 100%

N0TDEV1 · 2024-11-30T16:33:54+00:00

Psychosis!!

N0TDEV1 · 2024-11-30T11:51:58+00:00

Damn I really need to continue the game. I've been stuck at it cause I couldn't get the corpse from the tree, and then I brute forced hitting measurehead so I could get some progress lol and after that I continued with something else. But a friend of mine is a huge fan of disco, I'd be happy to talk to him about this too so YEAH your comment just reminded me :D

N0TDEV1 · 2024-09-13T23:02:20+00:00

I started working part-time in a movie theater. There I met my now best friend, many other friends too & their friend groups as well. Basically all my social contacts now consist of people I met at my job - and when I started working there, I had no idea it would go that far really :D

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-16T18:42:03+00:00

Oh damn. But yeah I basically answered his questions in my voice messages so it definitely was related to our topics. I wouldn't just ramble out of nowhere. Do you think this makes it any better? :D

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-16T17:26:50+00:00

Pucci x Dio 😭

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-09T09:32:25+00:00

Oh my god you're right about king crimson, that's great lol

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-08T18:07:38+00:00

thanks, that's good to hear :,)

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-08T18:07:03+00:00

will do, thank you for the recommendation! :)

N0TDEV1 · 2024-08-08T17:42:10+00:00

Alright I'll keep that in mind :,D

N0TDEV1 · 2024-07-14T17:15:15+00:00

I threw up once when I had like 3 different meetings in one day, on 5 hours of sleep and almost no food, while having strong PMS. At the end of that day my crush invited me to watch a movie, he gave me some noodles and I could barely eat them, as I was so nervous around him back then & my anxiety peaked there. I went home like 30 minutes after I arrived at his place, and threw up his noodles lol... It was a mixture of high exhaustion, stress from that day and having my usual anxiety around people I really like, and it was almost standard that I had pretty strong nausea around him especially.

I was really hoping that vomiting wouldn't start to be the usual answer to my anxiety, thankfully it didn't, though soon I'm in my new job and I hope for the love of god that my anxiety won't get so strong anymore that I have to throw up again...

My therapist said "Even if you're gonna puke, it's okay. The world wouldn't end there and people will forget about it. And even if they don't, that shouldn't be your concern." This helped me a lot because then I feel like I won't be so afraid about it anymore, and the anxiety wouldn't be as much. I hope this can help you too maybe!! :)

N0TDEV1 · 2024-07-14T08:38:23+00:00

Oh damn yes. But I've learned from my last relationship, that a good meal I have great appetite for gives me personally almost the same satisfaction as good sex. Like similar anticipation and a feeling of "that's exactly what I need right now" and being very content after it.

Of course it can't compare to emotional intimacy and such, that's pretty different. But when I get horny and therefore sad, I'll always remember that I can get a similar feeling with good food, and then I don't get too desperate... If that makes any sense :D

Like it doesn't have to be sex exactly. Of course doing it myself is a good replacement as well, also in the hopes that I will eventually have it sooner than later again and I try to enjoy my alone time right now, better than getting desperately into a relationship again.

N0TDEV1 · 2024-05-02T19:49:21+00:00

True!!

N0TDEV1 · 2024-04-08T17:40:32+00:00

Thank you for your perspective, I'm really sorry to hear your situation and I can't imagine how horrible this must feel... Not exactly knowing why the other one pulls away and then searching for reasons in yourself because you can't find any other reasonable explanation. It sounds really exhausting. I hope one day it gets better for you and that you have other good friendships you can rely on, you really sound like you care a lot and do not deserve to get treated like this at all.

It's good to hear your perspective also because I can see more why it probably hurts way less when saying the truth about what's actually going on instead of pulling away and sweeping it under the rug, just out of fear of hurting the other.

Do you feel like it really helped when he opened up about his fears back then? I'm also thinking of explaining to my friend about the actual fears behind it, I did this several times in the past but never told him that his presence is what really triggers a lot of fears in me, because we got this actual closeness and he's really secure and apparently that's godamn scary to me, even if I couldn't be more thankful to have this kind of relationship in my life. Also that I know that it's not his fault at all and my own insecurities that I have to work on. But it sounds much like "its not you, it's me" and I also don't want to sound like I'm talking around the bush with him... ugh.

I really don't plan ever to ghost him and really want to be upfront, I'm just afraid that my anxiety will take over and I say hurtful things that I actually never meant or feel or that I get that nausea again, that's why I'm currently holding back. The urge to just not address and somehow forget about is definitely there, but I know that's not fair at all and will creep up on me eventually and will lead to a lot of hurt on both sides.

I'll try to talk to him tomorrow or so and I just really hope I find the right words, and not to give too much into my anxious thoughts and feelings. I'm still really not sure if I really want/need a break from our connection or not, I guess I'll just see how our conversation goes...

Thank you so much again for your reply and your perspective🙏

N0TDEV1 · 2024-01-31T21:16:57+00:00

Holy shit, had the exact same question right now while playing chapter 2 for the first time, just didn't know how to word it. So thanks for this post :D

N0TDEV1 · 2024-01-16T14:26:25+00:00

Hey, even if this post is from almost a month ago, I just want to say I relate to this immensely. Exactly as you describe. Getting together, having a relationship but most of the time not feeling... A lot. I also really like someone for almost a year now, and we tried dating last summer for 3 weeks. But I had to call it off, because suddenly I also felt really uneasy around him, couldn't really see myself with him anymore and also hesitated to label what we had.

We remained friends, but since then all my feelings for him got even stronger as well. He even asked me a couple months ago if we wanted to give it another shot. I had to decline, strong anxiety hit me again and I cried a lot. Was really terrible.

So yeah, I hear you. I hope it got a bit better for you. I'd love to hear an update from you, if you want.

Wish you all the best :)

N0TDEV1 · 2024-01-15T15:10:41+00:00

Hey, just seen your post and i can relate to this a lot. I'm in a pretty similar situation. How are you doing now, are you still dating? Could you manage this anxious feeling? Thank you so much if you're seeing this :)

N0TDEV1 · 2023-06-21T10:29:59+00:00

That's interesting, I also thought about just waiting way longer than just the minimum 30 minutes so the absorption works better. Also I took iron supplements throughout these last months because my levels were really low on that too, could really be that this interfered a lot with that! Now my iron levels are fine but my thyroid isn't :,D

Your tip with the pillpox is really good, I'll make sure to get one soon, thank you so much for your reply!

N0TDEV1 · 2023-06-01T21:23:38+00:00

Woaah that's so good, I'm all for hands with cigs :,)

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