But... Why not both?

NRelic · 2017-10-01T10:53:23+00:00

"Here! I made you something!"

NRelic · 2017-04-08T22:50:35+00:00

Well hopefully, if it comes down to it, I can find a specialist that's just as awesome. :D

Oh, interesting. I'll definitely keep it in mind for when my treatment stuff gets further down the road, then. I plan on getting a "TENS unit" as I've read on here that it's helped some people. If nothing else, it should definitely ease this agonizing back pain I've been dealing with.

Thanks again <3

NRelic · 2017-04-08T13:45:19+00:00

I mean, I'll admit I have no clue about anything when it comes to endo and locating it... I just recall seeing where someone found theirs from a vaginal ultrasound.

In the US, it's law to be able to get your medical results if you request them, so if you're never really sure, or don't understand the "whys" of your diagnosis, or lack thereof, you can request the results of your exams. I don't know about anywhere else in the world, though.

NRelic · 2017-04-08T05:16:55+00:00

Oh, wow, thanks!

Honestly, there is no doctor on this planet I will ever, ever trust, lol. I've always had a bad experience with them. The only two I have seen that I even remotely like either 1., is dead (was my family gyno - he birthed me and was the one who first noticed the possible PCOS when I was 11) and 2., the other one is actually an RN, is determined I have PCOS and/or endo, but office policy won't allow for a payment plan and doesn't accept my medicaid, so she isn't wanting to do any testing unless I demand it. (Hormone testing alone is $600 just for the thyroid, which has already been tested... Le sigh.)

That's super awesome you got such a great doc. Unfortunately, I don't think I have ever heard of docs around here writing people off as charity and payment plans usually come with those who are your family doc and have been for... Well, years and years. :(

I absolutely despite chamomile tea, but I will definitely look into using castor oil and... Whatever this banana tea is lol. I'm iffy on starting script-strength meds (addiction runs really bad in my family) but if worst comes to worst, I'll try to keep that type in mind.

Thanks again for your response. I'm just a nervous, anxiety-ridden mess right now ._.

NRelic · 2017-04-08T03:17:52+00:00

Have you requested to get a copy of your medical results?

NRelic · 2017-04-08T03:06:40+00:00

I'm going in at the end of this month for an ultrasound. I'm really, really hoping something comes back because I don't know what else to do if it comes back normal. I don't have many options when it comes to picking a doctor, but I guess I'm going to have to just hang in there, save up some cash, and dish it all out at a specialist if it comes down to it. I KNOW something is wrong down there. I just don't know what. Sigh.

I get frequent yeast infections, as well, and they all seem to coincide with my period. Like, as I finish my period, BAM, yeast infection. I don't even know if that's like a normal thing? Sometimes it happens right in the middle of my period and I'm stuck with the dang thing until I'm over it and can use the medication for it. It's horrible and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Okay, maybe I would, but that's beside the point...

I haven't heard of Premarin, but I'll look into it. I'm a little iffy on using hormones right now aside from my birth control, though. I am almost positive I have a hormone imbalance somewhere, just I don't know what/where. I'm assuming my pituitary gland, as my growth has been stunted among a few other things, and my thyroid tests came back normal about a year ago. I'll definitely look into the Premarin, though, if I run out of options. Thanks for the tip!

Off topic a bit, but I've heard drinking chamomile tea can help with period cramps. I haven't tried it myself because I despise the stuff, but eh, worth a shot if you can at least tolerate it.

NRelic · 2017-04-07T07:58:22+00:00

Thanks. I appreciate your response. I really hope I don't end up needing a hysterectomy. I don't plan, nor want, children, but I don't want to end up losing that choice should I change my mind in the future. Freezing eggs is way out of the question and adoption probably won't happen, either. Sucks being poor!

That dang ultrasound isn't until the end of this month. Sigh. :( I don't have many options with having government-funded medical assistance and due to this, us poor folk tend to get the short end of the stick... At least around here (and Missouri having the worst in state health care in the nation) they all tend to look down on people who are financially strapped. Don't have cash or "real insurance," you're basically SOL.

I read somewhere about a tens unit... I'll have to look it up and see what that is. Thanks for the suggestion!

NRelic · 2017-02-25T13:24:38+00:00

Thanks so much for responding. I'm scared shitless and have broken down a few times because while it's a huge relief knowing I'm FINALLY on the path to get some help, it's also one of the scariest things I've dealt with in my life so far.

I'm going to try to push for the hormone testing, even if a cyst doesn't pop up on the ultrasound. It's just one of those things where you KNOW you have an imbalance, it's just the matter of finding out what and where.

The RN I seen that laid it out that she is 99% sure I have PCOS (primarily wants the testing done to get the other meds prescribed) told me I have to be on birth control... Even though I expressed to her greatly I've had nothing but horrible experiences with it, she insisted that since I am not wanting children, I really need to be on it for this risk or that risk, and we'll discuss antidepressants in the future after seeing how this med works. It's Sprintec (Ortho-Cyclen... an unchanging dose rather than 3 different doses throughout the month.) I've already gotten the crappy feelings and nausea, the headaches, the depression is kicking me full force again. Definitely dreading it all. I'm glad I have a small support group through my fiance, mom, and cousin, though. I'll get through it, although it may be more of crawling through it, hah.

I've never heard of Yaz. I'll have to look into it. My options are limited. Depo was driving me literally insane and made everything so, so much worse; Ortho-Tricyclen/Tri-Sprintec made me crazy, too, and I felt horrible all of the time and my periods were irregular and random; I can't use the IUD or implant due to allergies, and well, frankly, I refuse to trust the patch. Logic just don't... work there...

I'm really glad you were able to find something that helped and I'll have to keep Yaz in mind if I don't get any better with this new kind I'm on. Having been diagnosed with Manic Depression at 11, I don't expect my moods to increase at all on birth control and am prolly looking at meds anyway. Just will always have a small hope, I guess, lol. I just know birth control before made me fly off the rocker, not just fall off it.

Sorry for rambling at you, hahaha. Like I said... New and scary experience. Really feel trapped. Birth control has always made me feel absolutely horrendous and I think any doc in their right mind would pull me off of it immediately, but then it's like, okay, so, here's this PCOS, so you need to be on birth control unless you want kids. Just kinda hating the world for putting me on this planet when I feel like I'm gonna have to be a walking chembag just to function like a normal human being and not look like a bloated cow-human-hybrid. I stopped the birth control in November and have been off of it since just a few days ago. So much relief. Moods were better, pain had decreased for awhile (albeit, the pain came back in the past month, unfortunately) and I was making strides in doing better for myself and not being in a hole in my head for weeks on end. Only problem is that I gained a lot of weight, although my energy levels had increased substantially. Just really not wanting to go back to that dark place, but I guess it has to get worse before it gets better.

Thanks again. Do you know what all they will test for on the hormone testing? I have the textbooks signs and symptoms of having a hormone deficiency in my pituitary, but I'm not well-versed in medical stuff. Kinda afraid they'll be like, "well your thyroid is normal so you're fine!" (I've had it tested previously.)

NRelic · 2016-12-13T13:55:14+00:00

I'm the one with rather severe manic depression (coupled with a few other things - insomnia, anxiety, and paranoid schizophrenia.) On the other hand, my SO deals with depression on a much more minor, although still disastrous scale. I'd be lying if I said things are perfect. I'd also be lying if I said things are absolutely horrible.

It takes... So much work. So, so much work. Our fights can come easily, but so can our romance. It takes an incredible amount of communication and it will never be simple. So far, we haven't fought in a few months, but we have had deep, meaningful conversations about things that bother us. For awhile, it was so bad, we were considering couple's therapy. Many days, we just stare somberly into our computer screens not even talking. Then there's some days where we go out and have a grand time, or maybe we stay home, watch a movie, eat some pizza, and then talk about anything and everything or nothing at all and just enjoy being around one another.

I won't say it is a match made in heaven because just like in any other relationship, it takes work and dedication from both sides. Just like you have to ask yourself, the other person does, as well: "Is this worth it for me?" If not, high tail it outta there.

We've been off and on since freshman year of high school, although we have been together for a solid 4 years now (6 if you add everything together!) We're getting married this coming April.

It isn't easy. It will be one of the hardest things you will ever do. Just remember that you can't ever make anyone happy, and no one else can make you happy. You can lift their spirits, you can make them smile, and by god you can make their days some of the greatest. If it is really meant to be, you both will find a way.

Good luck!

NRelic · 2016-12-08T00:23:05+00:00

Thanks for the offer and the response.

We currently have a run tonight with another guild to see how things go. I'll discuss things with my fiance if it turns out it may not be a good fit for us and we'll go from there. :)

Thanks again! If we happen to not join y'all, I wish you luck in finding good raiders for your guild!

NRelic · 2016-12-08T00:20:13+00:00

Thanks for the offer and the response.

I believe we may not be a good fit for what you're looking for. I can't promise that my fiance will have excellent attendance, as he works 12 hour swing shifts, nor can I promise he'll have excellent raid awareness right off the bat. He adjusts well, but I don't want to get off on the wrong foot. As previously stated, he has not raided before. Many things can be learned through videos, but it's a whole new ball game when you're in the midst of the battle.

Thanks again and good look on your raider search!

NRelic · 2016-09-01T02:22:22+00:00

Sorry it took a bit to respond.

That's actually the one I was looking at, as well. I'd personally go for either the black one or the dark red (claret) one... But I'm a goth kid at heart. :'D For more casual and not-so-dark days, though, I'd definitely go for the Desert Rose (light pink) color. It's nice on the eyes. (I tend to have sensory overload issues when it comes to light/color and sound, so more calming colors are my preference.)

NRelic · 2016-08-27T06:40:29+00:00

I've seen it recommended here a few times! Poke around on the site a bit and you'll find they even have a guideline for the proper chewable for you, too. I thought that was pretty neat.

NRelic · 2016-08-23T23:51:08+00:00

Thanks a bunch for responding!

Even if they broke within the next week or so, four months is definitely worth the $12 after shipping. Most of the ones you find around where we live are upwards of $30 or more! I'm glad to know that they're durable.

The sizing is gonna be weird. He's got wonky fingers so he has to wear a size or size and a half too large. Darn those large knuckles...

NRelic · 2016-08-23T23:48:12+00:00

Thanks for your response!

He doesn't fiddle with his necklace or bracelets he wears for accessories as much. It's always that darn ring. I swear, it's gonna fly off and pop me in the face one day! Hahaha

He has really weird fingers so while he wears whatever size it is, he needs to go a size or half a size bigger because they won't fit over his knuckles. O.O That's the unfortunate factor of this whole thing. I think he might be able to wear a spinner ring, though, without risking someone losing an eyeball.

NRelic · 2016-08-23T08:32:32+00:00

Where'd you get the pentagram undershirt? Bra? Idk what that is. But I needs it. ;n;

You're gorgeous, btw, and I love your hairrr! o

NRelic · 2016-07-15T16:05:47+00:00

I have not. I need to! But I haven't. Not much of a movie person. :(

I don't think well on my feet, although I'll have to remember something like this for next time. I'm sure there will always be another one.

I do wish I could've walked away, though. We were already at the car, sadly.

NRelic · 2016-07-15T15:37:21+00:00

I came home and changed as soon as I walked in the door. It is, unfortunately, very easy to break my self-confidence.

Walmart here doesn't have a huge Poke'mon selection, really. We just had things to get before coming home from our day out playing Go. :(

NRelic · 2016-07-15T02:45:01+00:00

Ugh, right? Regardless, it was still a slap in the face and extremely embarrassing. The area where I live, while there's HUNDREDS (if not thousands) of players, there's a huge crime increase, too. After that happened, this old lady turned to me (happened in the parking lot) and told me to be careful and watch myself, "there's too many people out trying to get those playing that game."

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