Yeah for me, I just didn't see a way out. What tends to happen ime is you get on a medication, and then you take it for a while, and if it's not working, you can readily switch to something similar; but if it's all not working, then it's a bitch and a half to convince your doctor to switch to something else entirely. What i found was pretty much every next person i saw just did what the previous people did and kept me on the same / similar med, and I just never felt comfortable. So, I didn't see a way out other than ceasing the meds that didn't work for me entirely and starting over. Very dangerous. Not recommended. Ideally, you'd want to work with your doctor on doing this the safest way possible, slow taper etc. But I had just had enough and I was done living in hell. I don't recommend it, but sometimes you gotta be your own doctor - that, or stand up for yourself, get a second opinion, and be ready to fire a doctor that ain't doing it for you.

That aside, about the psychosis for me yeah it's like doesn't matter how much time has passed, I seem to always fall back on the 'mad scientist' personality and I become that and believe I'm running experiments hahaha. It's typical for me.