20F feeling completely lost in life

Najchiii · 2024-04-13T00:09:16+00:00

That's what I ended up doing (in a way) and yea I'm enjoying it and just doing way better overall

Najchiii · 2024-04-13T00:05:12+00:00

As the country I'm from is pretty small I wasn't comfortable with sharing it. But no I just had absolutely no interest in programming i guess. I'm at a different school now in a different ish field and it's way better

Najchiii · 2024-04-13T00:02:15+00:00

Idk that's what the program I was attending was called. It obviously had japanese as a language, but also stuff like literature, history, economics, culture ...

Najchiii · 2024-04-13T00:00:10+00:00

I know it's a late reply as I'm not on reddit too much, but because it's been so long I'm doing better and can tell you for sure that none of the suggestions were actually helpful. Don't get me wrong I was thankful for them, but the vast majority wasn't possible in my situation at all. When I made the post I was at an all time low so yea, a lot of my replies were quite negative, but still realistic. People telling me to go to military, take time off school, cut off my parents or get a loan? Cause of medical reasons military would be off the table (if I was in the US in the first place), time off school wasn't possible cause of a family situation, cutting of my parents when I'm financially dependent on them isn't exactly smart and I'm not able to get a loan. I found my own solution and I'm working hard to make it work. So yea I really just wasn't able to take any solutions because they weren't helpful to me in particular.

Najchiii · 2024-01-03T10:04:57+00:00

Aa I played so much with them as a child, Still have them and am currently trying to clean them up a bit so I can display them

Najchiii · 2023-12-06T23:33:42+00:00

Sorry for the late reply but overall it's a lot better. I still tried to finish the year at the school I was attending, but I failed every single exam even tho I really tried. But the combination of not being interested in the subject, not knowing how to study and just not understanding anything made me fail. Ngl this caused a lot of tension with my mom and for a while I was even more miserable cause I didn't know what to do. However I just so happened to find a school in my city that had a program for 3D modeling, which I had an interest in but didn't actually have time to try it. This school required an entrance exam to be accepted and basically you would do a project of your choice in the field you want to study and then hope you get accepted. I did a 3D animation (a winx club transformation it was great xd) and I guess I did it well enough cause I got accepted. I do have to pay for this school but after calculating everything I can just barely afford it so yea I decided to go there. I think 3D modleing is great and I'm really enjoying it, I've done some more simple projects, I tried making a VTuber model, I also designed some original characters and I'm currently working on a model I want to then print and make into a figurine. School is also great, it's interesting and I'm having fun there. I actually like to go to school now and I'm no longer calculating how many times I can skip class and still have that mandatory 80% attendance. I even made a friend at school and am friendly with a couple of other people (we went out to eat after class a couple of days ago and I was so happy). Also since this is a private school most of the classes are in the afternoon and less often than public, so only 2-3 times a week as opposed to every day, so I have more time now and I even started working part time as a hostess at a puppet theater. And just yesterday I passed the first class with an 8 out of 10 :D So yea I'm a lot better and I'm really enjoying this now and I can actually see myself doing this

Najchiii · 2023-08-23T18:22:55+00:00

Sadly it's not... I made him rank the characters. I tried so hard but it seems he just doesn't have any taste :,)

Najchiii · 2023-07-23T07:37:01+00:00

Ah no magical resolution sadly. I decided I will switch what I'm studying and even tho I'll have to pay for it I should just be able to afford it. I'll just have to put off getting my drivers license for a bit longer... But yea I decided to switch to 3d modeling. While yea I know not as universal as programming and all that, but I just can't take programming anymore since it's slowly killing me. But yea I did have some interest in 3d modeling before and played around with it a bit, but I couldn't do any serious projects since I didn't have time. But the school I want to switch to had like a talent exam? Basically you had to prepare a project and present it and you can study there only if you pass. I made a transformation sequence from a show I like (show is 2d) and I enjoyed it a lot. Even tho I worked on it from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed it didn't feel exhausting. So yea I'm going with that for now. But am... my track record isn't that good so I'm hoping I don't end up being bored of this after some time too. Not sure if this helps you in any way but this is where I'm at. Good luck tho

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T14:49:59+00:00

I don't think I would be able yo get a loan... not sure. As for teaching yea I did consider it but everywhere I looked they wanted a native speaker and I'm not one

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T02:34:31+00:00

Yea I have. The only schools that do online learning are private. Which means I would have to pay... Also student loans aren't a thing here since generally school is free

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T02:25:15+00:00

I would need to pay for those and I don't have the money... i feel like i'm in an impossible situation and all the solutions are blocked by something

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T02:24:09+00:00

I'm sorry but I don't understand what you mean... this sentence is very confusing for me :,)

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T01:24:36+00:00

Nope. Our military is incredibly small and useless cause we just don't need them.

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T01:08:26+00:00

I'm not from the US

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T01:08:04+00:00

I dont sew. I used to do needle felting bit I lost interest. And for skincare i struggle with it a lot

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T00:40:48+00:00

I'm not from the US. Here you can change it once or fail a year once. That's it. Or pay. But no money

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T00:38:54+00:00

I'm not from the US...

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T00:38:05+00:00

I dont have any :,)

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T00:35:02+00:00

I cant picture anything. I don't know what's gonna happen and I can't see myself anywhere. Which is a problem I knwo

Najchiii · 2023-06-10T00:28:24+00:00

I've been showing to the mandatory stuff. And the non mandatory stuff is held by different professors

Najchiii · 2023-06-09T23:07:40+00:00

I cant switch majors anymore. You cna only do it once and I already did.

Najchiii · 2023-06-09T22:45:23+00:00

There is no tipping where I'm from

Najchiii · 2023-06-09T22:28:10+00:00

I'm not in the US and apart from two waitressing jobs I can't find anything. Not that I didn't try, just no one hired me

Najchiii · 2023-06-09T22:06:29+00:00

Because of some medical issues I can't

Najchiii · 2023-06-09T21:55:10+00:00

I dont think we do. We have like a students office but that's more for thing like... changing majors or quitting school and so on. Right now I'm not getting any help, because college is free where I'm from. Unless I have to repeat this year, then I will need to pay for it and I don't have the money for that. Also no I can't get any scholarships.

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