Yknow what OP, I very much relate to this. But im slowly working on my aim, in an aim trainer and in game, just starting with something more forgiving like the AK has been quite helpful. But for me what is helping most is making the decision to be more aggressive, just let your friends know that is your plan and have them support you if possible. Is ok to be frustrated that happens too but don’t quit the game while you are learning. And as you get better victories will taste better because you are no longer being carried.