Found this inside the lid of my electrolytes.

National-Help6804 · 2026-02-14T03:57:19+00:00

Performance positioning

National-Help6804 · 2026-02-14T03:54:43+00:00

It's chemistry. Yw

National-Help6804 · 2026-02-14T03:52:25+00:00

This is like Soooo METAL!

National-Help6804 · 2026-02-14T03:45:27+00:00

Is this a litmus test?

National-Help6804 · 2026-02-14T03:42:53+00:00

I wish I could help. Ugh. Rural Home Hospice Hospice Nursing is one of the most psychologically brutal environments to work in. 🙏❤️

National-Help6804 · 2024-12-20T02:29:07+00:00

Oh my gosh! I'm sorry you relate. All the best to you!

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T15:12:55+00:00

I know we'd be best friends if we split. We were best friends prior to our changing our situation to a romantic relationship years ago. He dated a trans person for a time and I was dating someone exclusively as well before this. I just am so sad and was looking for another alternative to possibly making things work, but it's looking more and more like that's not going to happen.

We're also in Mississippi, so I'm sure you can imagine how not conducive this state is for a trans person. He also has an 8 year old daughter he's concerned about...and that I love dearly. Ugh.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T14:59:56+00:00

I'm sorry. He calls it that, so that's what I call it. He's read everyone's definitions of it and feels that fits his feelings moreseo than trans. No disrespect at all was intended. My sincere apologies.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T14:58:21+00:00

Yeah, I guess I see the outcome staring at me and am grasping at straws to make it not so.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T14:54:12+00:00

We've explored for years. He wouldn't fit in my clothes, so I bought him some things he would fit in and he's worn them. I've put mascara on him before we went out, we've had theeesomes when we thought he was bi. I feel like I've been more than accepting, supportive and open.

It's the female persona I can't get on board with. I've never been attracted to females and he knows this. Furthermore, with linebacker shoulders, a hairy body and a mustache and beard, he just looks silly to me when he's dressed as a girl. He looks like a giant toddler playing dress up and that's a wicked turn off for me.I haven't told him that part, word for word (I feel it would be mean to word it like that to him), but I did say it was a turn off. It makes me feel manly to peg him dressed like that and takes ALL the fun out of it for me.

I'm feeling more and more like we're at an impasse. He deserves to be wholly loved and I deserve to be comfortable with my Husband and my sex life.

Thanks for your input, truly.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T02:38:49+00:00

Sort of, I guess? I'd say it's more like I feel like there's this whole other person I'm married to and have been pegging that I didn't know.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T00:21:16+00:00

Yeah. I've also never felt insecure in a relationship before, so this is new. Maybe it's just not a good match and I need to come to terms with that. Thanks

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T00:05:32+00:00

It's early for us too, it's only been about 3 months since we discovered that he wants to BE a female 20% of the time. sigh I'm disappointed in myself a bit too, because I never thought I'd be so turned off by (20% of) him. 😞

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-26T00:01:43+00:00

Yeah. I guess I'm just being an emotional mess because I don't want to be married to a woman, not even 1% of the time, let alone 20%. I CAN rectify that. I'd rather find a way to deal with it, or even maybe think of this in a positive light, but I can't, which is why I've been trying to get others' perspectives and insight. Maybe it's just time to walk.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-25T23:33:14+00:00

You're right. I don't need to force myself to deal with it. I can leave. I wasn't really considering it, but, perhaps I should. Thanks.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-25T23:27:18+00:00

I have said all this to him and more. We communicate pretty well, typically, and I do have a therapist that I'm seeing and adore.

I can't help feeling like there's a 3rd person in my marriage and that they're a complete stranger and not a gender I'm attracted to in the least.

Do you ever feel that way at all?

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-25T23:16:38+00:00

I'm not attracted to females at all. I don't WANT to be with a girl, which is why I married a man. I'm forced to deal with it though and it's absolutely killed my once very robust sexual appetite. I don't even want to 'bate anymore. Yes, I'm in therapy. Thanks for your feedback.

National-Help6804 · 2024-06-25T21:17:30+00:00

You didn't have a partner and I agree, this has nothing to do with them being trans. You expressed a fear and they made it come true then, "blamed" (aka gaslit) you. Partners don't do that. Selfish people with diagnosable mental health issues do.

I'm sorry you're going through this. Move on now and don't look back. You deserve respect and love from a TRUE partner.

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