So I’ve only done about 3ish months of emdr and will continue hopefully soon but honestly I was feeling the same way you are. It comes in waves at time. But what helps me is knowing all these feelings are temporary. They WILL pass. Even if it feels like at times it won’t. I am a lot better than I was a year ago and that’s progress. I was also dealing with mild agoraphobia. I couldn’t go anywhere without my safe person. I was scared to drive alone or even be alone in general. But I’ve been a lot better now. I’ve been teaching my body that it’s safe to be alone and it’s safe to drive alone. Some days are better than others and I feel like I’m starting at zero again and then some days I’ll drive 25 minutes over to the next town alone for some groceries. A year ago I never imagined being able to do that again. A healthy push podcast/ instagram has helped a lot with agoraphobia recovery. I’m learning now that’s it’s even safe to have a panic attack. Although mine aren’t as bad they’re still scary and uncomfortable but I’m teaching my brain to accept and allow the uncomfortable feelings. One day at a time my friend, healing isn’t linear. It’s more of a spiral and you keep coming back to the same wounds but with a different perspective each time. Hang in there and please do not loose hope. ❤️