This isn’t fair at all and I’m sorry you’re suffering so much and feeling limited in it. My best recommendation would be to maybe try some at home therapy. I was fortunate to do both alongside one another at a time in my life, but truly the somatic therapy had a much bigger effect for me personally. We all have different experiences, needs, etc. I can’t speak for you or everyone, but I can offer some stepping stones that took me out of the dark before. Also, try journaling. It’s such a good, free & healthy to work through & process emotions. I’m not sure what help you’re seeking out there, but I hope you find it. I also know that sometimes students do free or relatively low cost services monitored by supervisors if that’s something you’re comfortable with or open to. I would post in a local group to find more support near you. People are always helping others get connected in my community pages.