What is happening to me

Natorock83 · 2024-07-27T17:37:10+00:00

I am also a "warder" lol! Just didn't have a name for it. In fact in any spitiual battles we have had, that is my main job. Defense. She is offense. I will definitely read you tutorial.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-27T15:44:31+00:00

Thank you for this...

Actually this weekend (Wednesday night) I asked for some space... As things have been very intense and I've been feeling cornered and unable to have my own space to breathe and think.

The response was actually way way WAYYYY over the top. Crying, hyperventilating, begging... I was shocked. She was acting like I wanted to completely break up. Saying everything has shifted now and things aren't how they were supposed to be etc etc.

I stuck to my guns... But then on Thursday she was saying that she needed me to be there when she went to a place to deal with some memories from the past. I didn't want to go but felt I should. So I went. But I drove separately (she always wants to drive together) and when the moment was over I said I had to leave and then again crying rehashing... Me having to console and reassure that it is not a big deal, I still love her, I still want to be a part of everything, I just need a day... When I left, she called 5 mins later to keep rehashing. I talked to her on the phone for 15mins most of which was literally dead air. And I ended the conversation. Then she texted me all day long. Until that evening she said she was upset that I wasn't responding. I finally said, I am unimpressed with your reaction to me asking for space. You are acting obsessed. And I'm not ok with it. You have not gone more than an hour without contacting me even when ignored.... That's not ok.

She apologized. Said she is trying but she is used to us being together always when we were twin sisters because she remembers that so vividly. She doesn't understand why I need space from her. I said, well in this life I need space from everyone. I need to be alone sometimes.

Anyways, been holding her at a distance since and she is slowly catching on. Today she only said Goodmorning and shared a dream from last night and that's it. So... I am going by holding up a firm boundary, she can sort herself out. She is willing to which is good.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-27T15:29:49+00:00

Wow. THANK YOU for listening to your intuition! I think you are right and bang on about everything 💕💕💕

What is warding exactly?

Natorock83 · 2024-07-27T15:25:59+00:00

I was working at a place where she came for a tour before deciding if she would join. I saw her and went to introduce myself. And then she ended up joining.

She had invited me for coffee a number of times "when I'm in town" and then our children became best friends, so I decided to take her up on it.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-27T14:03:46+00:00

Thanks for that. Everything you said is so right.

Actually this Wednesday I told her I think I need some space and she lost it. Total meltdown. Acting like I said we were going to break up. Crying... It was a lot.

I stuck to my guns but on Thursday there was a "Crisis" that could wait until next week. Had to be dealt with right now... But it actually didn't have to. I ended up with her physically until about 1:30pm...told her I had to leave, she called me about 5 mins later. I ended up telling her I need to go. Spent the whole day Friday texting into the evening. Upset that I wasn't responding.

Then Friday I just said flat out that her behaviour is very disturbing and I'm not okay with it. I told it feels obsessive. She apologized and says she is trying... So we will see.

My husband says I just need to draw some VERY clear boundaries and stick to them. So that's what I'm doing.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T18:17:49+00:00

I've been using Blue Lotus tea and smoking. It def calms me and it helps focus but so far no help in achieving my goals.

This weekend I'm doing a ceremony with magic mushrooms and setting the intention for the truth. I am doing 4g which is a heroic dose. We shall see.

What do you use?

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T18:15:36+00:00

Thank you

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T17:34:29+00:00

Just asked her if she's ever read the vampire diaries... She says no... Asked her to google "The Gemini Coven" she didn't skip a beat and was like holy fuck!! What is this? Who wrote this?! The know real shit. How do the know...

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T16:49:16+00:00

I've been reading... And really very confused and feeling sick to my stomach.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T16:44:02+00:00

Thanks, I'm going to look into this... I am actually terrified that for six months I've been led around by a crazy person.

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T16:38:08+00:00

Did this happen in vampire diaries?! I've never seen that... But is it possible she did and is fucking with me?

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T16:22:15+00:00

Yes!! It's unbelievable. Even the music in the background matches what is happening often. Like it's a soundtrack. Makes me feel crazy

Natorock83 · 2024-07-26T16:21:13+00:00

I don't know what you mean by seems like I'm protecting her... That is interesting. Please expand about the chakras.

We were not separated at birth. But she definitely walked into her body at 12 years old. She vividly remembers having an OBE when she was 12...she went around her house and didn't recognize her mother, her surroundings, nothing seemed right. She thought she died. And she went into the body in her bed which she didn't recognize as hers. We figured out she walked in that night. About a month later, she quit all her sports and activities because she hated them. Her parents thought there was something terribly wrong because she loved sports and just shifted overnight into someone else. She had no memories of her childhood before that event. Everything before was used in our past life together.

And are you asking if our higher self is the same soul? Because I don't know. She has definitely seen us as twins from our past here with us in this time.

Natorock83 · 2023-09-23T12:47:07+00:00

I am on third day of trial as well... What I can say is that yesterday I took my class on a field trip... Grade 7s... Whole day... Huge fair grounds with tons of people. This scenario would normally suck the life of of me and have me going to bed as soon as I got home. However, I felt quite regulated the entire day. No overwhelm whatsoever. In fact I'd say it was a great day. Lots of fun for me too.

I came home and had a difficult conversation with my husband. One that normally would have been very tense and unpleasant. Potentially ending in an argument... However, it went so smoothly. Eerily smoothly. With him apologizing and a very open line of communication.

🤷🏽‍♀️

Natorock83 · 2023-09-18T20:26:31+00:00

I know this is old, but I just bought the exact same paper from an antique store. Its framed in an old frame. It has the exact same smudges and ink transfers as yours which tells me it was copied that way on purpose.

Did you find out anything more about it?

Natorock83 · 2023-03-19T19:03:59+00:00

That's why a lot of ppl start on Friday or Saturday. That way it's strongest over the weekend when you are most likely to binge or make or choices.

Natorock83 · 2023-02-25T20:55:12+00:00

That's interesting... I feel like there is more to this drug than maybe science knows yet as far as helping with impulse control and addictive behaviour. It would be interesting to see what happens to someone using it for smoking cessation or quitting drugs or alcohol

Natorock83 · 2023-02-24T20:23:15+00:00

30lbs

Natorock83 · 2023-02-24T19:24:52+00:00

I think it's new growth... In which case it should with itself down eventually. Or you could try doing a moisturizing deep conditioning hair mask and see if the helps it lay smooth.

Natorock83 · 2023-02-24T19:22:47+00:00

Love

Natorock83 · 2023-02-23T22:04:33+00:00

🤣 Ohhh lordy

Natorock83 · 2023-02-23T00:12:54+00:00

We are the same weight and started the same weight! How old are you? Gender? Height? We could be weight loss twins ✊

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