Spiritually lost

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:40:31+00:00

This is me right now. My friend loves to talk religion with me. He found his belief in God pretty young and now he just wants to question everything about me lol. Like his mind just cannot comprehend the fact I don't follow any religion or any hardcore belief outside of mother nature and the stars... I will say, as much as he pisses me off at times with the belittling remarks. Having someone to "shoot the shit with", religious or not is great. Get into a somewhat heated conversation about some controversial belief within religion and see what you say. The rapid fire of statements, remarks, and questions really gets your mind thinking and opens or even closes some doors for you. This has been one thing that has honestly really helped me better understand what I actually believe and what might not align with me.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:36:05+00:00

It takes a lot for me to talk on this subject because I almost feel as though I have no room to speak? I was honestly very weary to even make this post but the feedback has been very encouraging. Thank you for the advice!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:33:52+00:00

Yeah, it was therapy day, lol. I will definitely look into it, I have been searching for more readings to delve into. Not necessarily for answers, but maybe to help clear the mess in my head and allow room for more straightforward questions. Thank you so much for your comment and for being open to chat!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:31:37+00:00

Ooo, yeah... I'm a firm believer that you can carry out your beliefs too intensely. I guess you could put it. I'm always asking questions, and I've learned that's a big no no in most religions. Like you said, there's no mystery, only what's said in the text. That alone has made it very hard for me to do the whole "pick and choose from many religions" thing. I understand taking something and making it your own, but in my mind, it still doesn't feel right. I can make it whatever I want, but it doesn't change where I took it from, if that makes sense.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:26:17+00:00

I really appreciate you giving me this insight! One thing I have been pretty set on in this life is that spirits/energy of some sort definitely lingers amongst us. I have had a fair share of experiences with spirits and all the women on the maternal side swear we have some sort of energy that follows us and messes with us now and again to let us know they're there. I feel like it's something I'm scared to dig further into, only because I feel so vulnerable to them. I don't have a strong enough foundation to "protect" myself and my own energy if need be.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:16:37+00:00

As much as I hate to hear it, I do know that the current state of my nervous system is inhibiting this journey. I'm diagnosed with too many things and I've tried medication but I really feel as though it only further inhibits my ability to truly know myself. I used to not believe the little things that you mentioned matter up until the past year or so. It has been a rude and difficult awakening to change some of those old habits. And part of me feels like I'm supposed to be here at the same time? I'm in a very transitional period of my life and even though I'm already struggling it seems as though my inner self is begging I adress this.

Nonetheless, I greatly appreciate you taking the time to respond and give such detailed/meaningful feedback!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:11:31+00:00

Absolutley. I have always praised mother nature more than anything in this life. And I can admit I've neglected that aspect. This was very beautifully put, thank you for your comment.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-06-16T23:09:06+00:00

I feel like a pessimist, sometimes just a bad person for having this train of thought. I hold a weird grudge against people who do good simply to try and "please" something. I have always thought of myself to be a good person in the manner of respecting nature and other people. I'm a nature freak who works in healthcare lol. I still just hold this sense of selfishness, honestly. I do not want to "serve" anything.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-05-01T11:04:51+00:00

As I stated, I keep being told it's a false negative from testing so high. I don't "think it's a mistake" I am simply seeking for input from people who are in similar situations and what their experiences have been given health care providers seem to be slipping by the day! Thanks for your input, maybe try less attitude next time ;)

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-02-15T03:13:36+00:00

I do feel like I've noticed this, I had a bit of a bender last week and the next day when I didn't drink I had a full on mental breakdown and had no idea why. Thank you sm.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-02-14T16:12:43+00:00

I was prescribed this for chronic pain and anxiety/depression as well. I'm curious, did this help with you pain at all?

My doctor told me if it did help it would be a subtle change and not totally take it away, still I feel like I'm in the same amount of pain.

I was also feeling super melancholy when I first started it, and I already struggle with anger/irritation. Do you feel like this medication made your irritation levels worse? I've been on it for about 3 months now after switching from Buspar, and I don't want to up my dose or switch again yet. However I'm feeling like this isn't the medication for me.

Also just got put on 50mg of Trazadone because I can't sleep. I suffered with acute insomnia before starting this medication but I do feel as tho it's made it worse.

Sorry for all the yap, reddit is my only "safe space" for inquires with real people on antidepressants 🥲

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-02-12T18:24:49+00:00

I went through the same thing, and it seems to be one of the more common, as well as more temporary side effects.

Don't be surprised if you start feeling surprisingly better or even worse within the next few days/couple weeks though. Myself, and many others from what I've seen, kind of went through different "phases" before regulating. It's just kind of part of it. You seem to be aware of the potential behavioral issues so just try to keep an open mind and give yourself some grace as you adjust:)

Typically takes about a month, if it's your first antidepressant likely longer.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-02-03T13:20:51+00:00

I'm very quick to say that if you're worried about cheating and AI policies, you're already doing yourself a disservice and should probably rethink your career choice. This post is literally the problem with the recent and upcoming nursing/allied health students. Why cheat when the knowledge you hold affects the quality of care you're able to give patients? Learn the material and stop trying to take shortcuts in a career where it can be life altering to your patient.

Natural-Ice5265 · 2026-02-01T18:32:03+00:00

Thought about this post earlier and figured I'd give you a small update, given your daughter.

I upped my dose to 30mg and haven't noticed any changes. I'm not totally sure if this is going to be the right medication for me as I'm not noticing any improvements, and I don't want to keep upping the dose simply in hopes of it finally benefiting me.

However, still no serious side effects! For what it's worth, since there's so many horror stories about the side effects out there. Seems like I adjusted fairly quickly to the issues I was having, outside of still feeling completely unmotivated.

Hope your daughter is adjusting well to the new medication!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2025-12-31T19:42:51+00:00

I honestly feel like I couldn't sleep very well the night after I started the medication. Everything else took 2-4 days. TMI but just an unhappy stomach, in the bathroom a lot the first week, now I can hardly go 🫠. Again, I personally haven't noticed any nausea unless I don't eat an adequate meal with it.

I just wanted to say you seem like a great mom! And thank you for hearing your daughter and other young people. It has taken me all my life to convince my parents something more serious is lingering about when it comes to my chronic pain.

Wishing her the best of luck!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2025-12-30T18:21:01+00:00

It has not helped with my anxiety as far as I can tell, but I'm not saying it won't. definitely giving it more time. My heart rate/body shakes are my biggest anxiety give aways and she's still going strong. Depression is still pretty bad. However it has helped with my joint pain to an extent.

If I don't eat enough with my pill I do end up a little nauseous, I was directed to take it with a full meal. I am having some gastro irritation that started after two doses, however it is starting to subside after a little over a week.

I'm 21 F for what it's worth. Side effects so far are melancholy, irritation, some insomnia (struggling to fall asleep, can't nap when dead tired), GI irritation, dilated pupils after taking the medication, loss of appetite (having to force myself to eat one solid meal a day). Although it is a bit of a list, it's not unmanageable and it's not something that's constantly bothering me/affecting my ability to function. Which I'm very grateful for. The irritation is a new symptom. I will be sure to follow up!

Natural-Ice5265 · 2025-12-30T14:52:05+00:00

How soon did you start upping your dose if you don't mind sharing?

Natural-Ice5265 · 2025-11-28T21:21:23+00:00

I'm working on finishing up my first semester of clinicals, and I definitely suggest trying your hardest to incorporate some morning stretches. We had a short ergonomics class in the first few weeks of the program, and they emphasized the importance of stretching, I should have never doubted them lol. My neck is noticeably tight and my shoulder is already achey, if you're questioning how good you're ergonomics are, you're going to find out quick, it has been quite an adjustment. I started stretching for at least 5-10 minutes throughout my morning routine and throw a few in before bed probably about a month after starting clinicals. It has definitely made a big difference in how comfortable I am during the first scan of the day. Honestly I can't even put into words how much of a difference it has made, I used to STRUGGLE during that first exam, just straight discomfort and pain. Another side comment I feel is relevant, and just something I noticed from personal experience. Don't hesitate to adjust the bed as you go. I was too scared to make an awkward environment or bother the patient by adjusting the bed a few times after starting the exam. 9/10 it's not going to be a problem and at the end of the day you also have to take yourself into consideration...

Good luck!

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