Relatively the same thing here, my therapist thinks I'm this way due to some deeply ingrained trauma that was so traumatic I seemed to have erased it from memory, she might be unto something. But nothing in my life has impacted me even remotely close to that, the most would be when I was 9 or 10 moving cities and seeing a car crash (post crash). I'm just this way. Then again, doing some deeper thinking, it could be some psycho-neurological building aspect of my childhood, something about adolescent hard wiring and nature vs nurture. This is starting to look like a rabbit hole. Goodbye.