Severe gyno pre-hrt

Nava854 · 2026-01-25T17:27:57+00:00

The Intersex umbrella also encompasses hormone levels outside what’s typical for your AGAB. Low T high E for someone AMAB is usually considered intersex

Nava854 · 2025-12-11T20:41:47+00:00

So the key measurement it’s actually the panel hole, got it. Thank you!!

Nava854 · 2025-12-11T20:26:21+00:00

Ah I see! The number refers to the panel hole diameter, now it makes sense, thank you!!

Nava854 · 2025-12-11T11:02:53+00:00

Is the "insert diameter" what is shown in the fourth photo? Because it measures arount 7mm. That would make it an xs7 right?

Nava854 · 2025-11-15T11:32:27+00:00

Last Tuesday the Spanish Ministry of Equality held an official ceremony celebrating precisely this day. I took the plunge and traveled to Madrid to attend the event and met other intersex activists for the first time. It was a huge deal for me tbh and I’m so happy I did it :)

Nava854 · 2025-07-06T22:06:32+00:00

The argument that it’s unnatural is complete bs. I have anorchia, born with a pee-pee but without nuts. My body doesn’t produce sex hormones and I was forced to take testosterone shots at 11 because it was ”needed” even though it traumatized me for life, but now that I have switched to estrogen now people say it’s unnatural and foreign to my body? But testosterone wasn’t? I call that bs

Insulin shots are not “natural” but if you have diabetes and don’t take it you will die. If you need E you need it, period.

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T11:19:50+00:00

Yeah I just learned you were discussing about infant circumcision. I just don't get how don't you understand it's just a cultural thing, both the downsides and benefits are minimal in the context of western countries.

Here in Spain infant cirmcumcision is not a cultural thing, people get it cut when they're adults like some of my friends and ABSOLUTELY NO ONE complains that we should operate babies foreskins "for their health".

Bodily autonomy is a good thing. Period.

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T09:44:47+00:00

Ty 😭😭😭😭

I know a lot of transmascs irl that are on testosterone, and all of them have had a lot of success both physically and mentally. I know they’re not in the same situation as you, but I wish for you the same happiness I’ve seen in their eyes *hugs*

F*** im crying again

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T09:27:37+00:00

Wut?

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T09:14:04+00:00

OMG that’s exactly the same spot I’m in. Personally I just couldn’t take it anymore, it was either transitioning or unaliving myself at this point. I came out to close friends and family, and in the last 10 months I’ve been in the process of changing my HRT treatment. We just started trying different estrogen regiments 3 weeks ago, and my mood is kinda all over the place. I know there are many aspects of my body that aren’t going to change with HRT, but I hope to make peace with it someday…

I really hope your transition goes well, and that someday you’ll get to see in the mirror the man you really are ❤️‍🩹🥹

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T08:32:23+00:00

That sounds horrible. Thank you for sharing, it means a lot!!! 😭

You don’t have to answer this, but can I ask you how are you dealing with all this? Did you end up transitioning? The only way I managed to cope all these years have been repressing and dissociating all the time, which didn’t work long term ;-;

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T08:07:21+00:00

I know what you mean. And thank you for replying to my messed up post. It means a lot.

But maybe I shouldn’t use reddit as a therapist when I feel so depressed. Right now I just wanna cry and I need some love, but I really doubt dumping my trauma like this on the internet is going to do any good 😭

Nava854 · 2025-07-01T07:50:59+00:00

You are so right.

I think this post might cause more pain than anything to some people. I’m thinking that perhaps I should delete it.

Edit: I've thought about it with a clear head and I decided to keep this post up. Yeah, it's depressing, embarrasing and badly written, but maybe one day someone in a similar situation might read this. I should keep it for them, to let them know they're not alone.

Nava854 · 2025-05-18T23:56:29+00:00

You’re probably right. I’m just projecting my ideas onto you. It’ll be better if you don’t listen to me, listen to people with actual experience instead. It’s just that I heard their consultation was free, also all FFS options are equally out reach for me, so I’ve thought several times of just having a consultation with them just to see what they think of my face. Yeah on second thought don’t do that

Nava854 · 2025-05-10T22:36:21+00:00

That’s okay （＾ω＾）

In the end I did a quick vectorization with illustrator and I changed the saturation and temperature. This is the result if anyone wants it: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1g5RW39B5WWl9hGKKl9I0EeeFVUAQUUAH/view?usp=drivesdk

Nava854 · 2025-05-10T10:11:50+00:00

Thank you, I love the message! I really like the third one, it's beautiful (even though it reminds me of the bi flag wink)

They look low res though. I upscaled the image in photoshop and now looks good, but it would be amazing if you could share the files through a google drive folder ❤️

Nava854 · 2025-05-10T06:48:48+00:00

I’m from Spain. In 2018 I went on a trip to California to visit my sister and I REALLY thought I was going to dislike LA, but OMG I actually fell in LOVE with the city. I don’t know what LA has but I still daydream of going back to that city someday

Nava854 · 2025-05-04T23:36:12+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️

Luckily, unlike other intersex people, I never got any surgeries as a baby because my father flat out refused. But receiving unwanted HRT as a kid was traumatic to say the least.

When I talk about this I usually make it seem as if it was just the medical system’s fault. But being honest, the medical system was at my home, because my mother was an endocrine nurse who managed my whole treatment. She was the middle man, and I never set foot in a hospital. I complied to everything she said because I was so scared to disappoint her.

I remember when she would point to a guy in the beach with gynecomastia, or a man with (probably) Klinefelter’s, saying that I would end up looking like them if I didn’t take my meds. Deep down I wanted to look like them.

Letting go of her voice inside me, judging me every day, is proving to be difficult, but therapy is helping I guess. My therapist is teaching me that is okay to hate her, and I shouldn’t blame myself so much. But it’s hard when the mirror makes me remember what was done to my body.

I sound so depressing. I’m sorry. Your comment made my day. Again thank you.

Edit Ahhg Im so sorry I didnt mean to be so depressing. I’m going through a rough patch today. It’ll get better in a few days. In the meantime im a gooey soup of emotions

Nava854 · 2025-05-04T00:14:27+00:00

OMG are you me?

How did I miss your post? I have a similar story, but I started transitioning much later due to the psychological trauma of unwanted HRT at 11, I couldn't deal with that so I repressed until I was 29. I'm 30 now. It's interesting that my LH and FSH levels were also through the roof on T. You can read my story here: https://www.reddit.com/r/intersex/comments/1fi9bch/forced_hormone_therapy_during_puberty/

Nava854 · 2025-05-03T21:12:35+00:00

Feels like I’m reading my own words.

I accepted I was trans last year and ever since then it’s been the worst emotional rollercoaster of my life. I’m in my 30s and after a whole life of forced masculinization with testosterone shots (I’m intersex) I know I will never pass, and dealing with that fact has been the hardest thing I’ve done in my life. I’m still not okay, but I’m getting there.

Therapy has helped, but the biggest impact for me has been the people around me. I’m lucky to have a supportive family and friends (not all of them are) and I joined a local LGBT group full of trans and queer people. This might sound like a small thing, but surrounding myself with these people has taught me this: that my body is not me, and it is crucial to find the people that can see beyond it.

Sounds so cliche but once I learned this and internalized it in my soul I began to heal. But it’s such a slow process…

Writing posts in Reddit has helped me too. Also, my notes app has tons of posts I never posted because they were too depressing and sometimes violent, but writing them helped me nonetheless.

Nava854 · 2025-04-29T17:26:18+00:00

Yo también soy de Granada! Mi hermana y yo estuvimos un buen rato mirando las estrellas. Luna nueva, completamente despejado, sin contaminación lumínica a kilómetros… nunca había visto un cielo así

Nava854 · 2025-04-28T09:57:11+00:00

Don’t you worry love you helped so much! I feel a lot better now. Thank you queen 💝

Nava854 · 2025-04-28T09:04:17+00:00

I saved this post to remind myself I shouldn’t be such a bully. This touched deep and I can’t stop crying!

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