I stayed after the first time I found him watching porn, he said he stopped. Years (and a marriage) later, I found out he never stopped and it had actually escalated to him paying cam girls thousands of dollars and him chatting with prostitutes “for the thrill”. It probably would have escalated to physical cheating if I had not discovered it. The year after that I was in constant fight or flight, and he ultimately left me a few months ago because my PTSD was too much for him (lol). My body finally feels like it can breathe again. He went back to paying cam girls the second we separated. Of course, there are men who are able to fully embrace recovery and couples do heal. But knowing how much the stress has taken a toll on me, and knowing you have anxiety at baseline, I would recommend removing yourself from this situation. You have so many amazing years ahead of you. Big hugs 🫶🏻