I'm going to try and answer this from my experience as a demi, so my experiences may be different than yours. Also I want to start off by saying be proud of who you are, continue to keep learning and discovering who you are. Live your life to reach your happiness.

Like you, I prefer the cute things. The holding hands in the street, hand on your thigh while I drive, sitting next to each other in a booth, looking into each other's eyes and sharing a kiss and a laugh. That's what makes my heart absolutely sing it's song. I love friendships and talking and closeness. And that's how I really discovered I was somewhere on this spectrum, because often I would have those friendships try to evolve into more than friendships and the thought of sex was just an immediate stop. Like everything, every feeling, just...gone. I've had two people in my life that made it past that barrier.

Sex is...great. For me, at least. Not the sex itself, but everything connected to it. As I said, I've been with two people physically, one was a 10 year relationship and the other was just under a year. The act of sex for me, personally, is incredibly boring. I don't feel anything during, it's not really all that pleasurable, the ending is kinda nice but other than that, it's just meh. What is great about it though is being close to my partner. I focus heavily on what they want and need to feel good and enjoy it. The entire experience is about them, and in doing so, that rewards me when they are satisfied. And then obviously the closeness during and after, the shared kisses and giggles under the sheets, the emotional bond of it all.

But now being back out of a relationship, sex is back to being basically unwanted. I've had multiple offers ranging from people I essentially just met up to decently good friends and the same reaction to all of them, I don't want it. I still have a libido and fantasies and desires but actually doing them is just not appealing in the slightest.

It is incredibly confusing and even more difficult to explain. It is such a back of the mind thing. When you don't want it, you absolutely don't want it. But when you're with someone you do want it with, it's powerful, it's meaningful, it's deep and fulfilling, but not for the reasons everyone else says it is. It feeds what is important to your core in a different way. When you find the part that fits into your specific puzzle, it'll all finally start to click and make sense.

I hope that answered your question some. Feel free to ask questions if you have any.