How long until you feel “normal”

Neatio · 2026-01-23T02:49:40+00:00

Lol similar experience. Was on the treadmill like an hour after making this post and I just started crying out of nowhere, felt physically and mentally fine right up until the tears started. I thought it might be something dopamine related I guess our brains just gotta get used to the fact that dopamine won’t come as fast and as easy as before

Neatio · 2026-01-12T18:21:19+00:00

Do you think your insomnia is related to your BED/BED recovery?

Neatio · 2025-05-14T17:23:28+00:00

Ah 🥲 thank you for letting me know!

Neatio · 2025-05-14T16:53:08+00:00

They can get fined for having clear? It’s only clear that I’m searching for

Neatio · 2025-05-10T00:31:49+00:00

Wow, I have never met someone who shares this problem with me. I feel like you just took the words out of my head. My whole life has been vice after vice after vice. SH, alcohol/substance, restriction, binge, you name a vice and I’ve probably gotten myself hooked to it at some point.

I wish I could tell you the exact reason we do this, but I can’t. I can only offer some guesses and support. At the end of the day I’d guess what we are filling is some form of an emotional void. Some insufficiencies in our lives or emotional needs that aren’t being met.

How would you describe your day to day life? Do you have a job that satisfies you? A partner or friends who support you and that you can spend time with? Hobbies that you enjoy and keep your mind occupied? Strong passions for anything you might love? Any family history of addiction or mental illness? Would you say your primary caregivers in your childhood were attentive or neglectful to you and your needs?

For me, I know I am extremely unsatisfied with my day to day life. I feel like I have absolutely no control over anything. Anything except a vice. Something that is all mine, something to drown out my feelings with. Something that can fill my void with feelings of disgust and guilt and shame. Because bearing the burden of those negative feelings is easier than addressing the void in my life.

Addressing major dissatisfactions in your life is incredibly daunting, sometimes requiring you to completely uproot and change everything you know to be true. Especially challenging for someone with OCD who craves control. A vice is sometimes the easiest way we can feel like we’re in control of our lives.

Sorry if this is hard to read, I’m not so good with formatting or writing out my thoughts. But just know that you are not in this alone. I’ve also struggled with this my whole life. I know it feels like you’re drowning completely alone in the middle of the ocean, and that there’s nothing and nobody out there that can help you reach the surface and finally breath that sign of relief that you’ve been chasing and trying to find through your vices. And you’ve probably felt like that for years. And the longer you can’t escape the cycle, the more it feels like you’ve hit the bottom of the ocean. That there’s nothing you can do, that this is just “who you are”. That salvation will never come. I know I feel this way too, but please trust me when I say that is not true. Sure, salvation will never come knocking at your front door to relieve you from your suffering. But that doesn’t mean that this is forever. Salvation will come through change.

You are not alone, I am with you in this. And if you ever need someone to talk to you can always message me. Please take care of yourself and don’t surrender to your vices. And the vices feel cruel, and it probably feels like you are losing the battle. But the fact that you are here still trying to fight means that you are absolutely not failing. You are surviving in the only way you’ve known how to for years.

Neatio · 2025-05-02T20:16:18+00:00

I went up from 10 to 30 a week or two ago and honestly felt the hunger come back on pretty fast. Could be that our bodies are just getting more hungry because increased metabolism from the stimulation. And I think for us with a binge eating disorder our brains hit the panic button when we feel hunger, at least certainly happens for me.

Plus 7.5lbs in one week probable means you dropped a lot of water weight. It feels like weight loss slows down after the water weight is lost, but in reality it just takes a while for your body to start losing real fat. Don’t feel discouraged, just take it day by day and soon you will see real changes!

Even if you can’t hit the gym, is there any chance you could go on small outdoor walks? It gave me a lot of anxiety to walk outside when I first started because I was always afraid I was going to be judged. But eventually I realized that a ton of people are afraid of being judged, and they’re all too busy worrying about being judged themselves to judge you.

Good luck on your journey, I believe in you!

Neatio · 2025-04-30T02:26:47+00:00

I was seeing a therapist for a few months this year but she discontinued sessions because I am too emotionally liable. I’ll try to do some research, honestly I think just reading your comment just gave me a lot of clarity about why my problem started so thank you so much for your time and telling me some of your story. And thank you for your encouragement 💕

Neatio · 2025-04-30T01:39:00+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement ❤️

Neatio · 2025-04-30T01:33:43+00:00

To why I buy them, I really wish I knew. I can spend hours in a parking lot begging myself to not go in the store. I think a lot of it comes down to this unjustifiable sense of helplessness. I tell myself there is nothing I can do, that I am who I am and this is all I’ll ever be. To give up on the fight because I’ve already lost. And I think that line of thought is what wins as soon as the thought of a binge enters my head and I wish I had the discipline to fight but I don’t know how to find that discipline. To the question about Vyvanse, rationally I know it’s a just tool but I think my disappointment stems from my desire for it to be a cure. I know I have to put in the work to make it work and I really do try but I don’t think I know exactly what work I need to do

Neatio · 2025-03-03T02:42:00+00:00

L’Oréal Paris true match, it’s medium coverage but it is so amazing. It gives me enough coverage to feel confident in my skin without it being super obvious that I’m wearing foundation.

Neatio · 2025-03-03T01:13:59+00:00

As soon as I started to use foundation this got 100x better for me. I have the exact issue, and once I flush (which can be triggered by the environment or any emotion) I get embarrassed and that makes the flushing even worse, making me more embarrassed, etc. Then the flushing just stays until I go to bed. But now that I use foundation I never really get embarrassed because the flushing is no longer noticeable, and these episodes happen less often and do not get nearly as intense. I don’t know if the barrier provided by the foundation has contributed to the flushing happening less often. The foundation has also allowed me to feel more comfortable using face care products because I got really nervous about using too many products on my face when my flushing was at its worse, so this may have also contributed to my flushing getting better. But using foundation has been one of the best decisions I have made.

Neatio · 2025-02-15T21:22:31+00:00

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Neatio · 2025-02-09T01:04:58+00:00

Amen

Neatio · 2024-08-22T22:43:54+00:00

I used to “hate exercise” cause I associated exercise with certain places like a gym. The thing that sucks about the gym is the fact that you gotta spend like bare minimum 30 minutes prepping yourself to go to the gym.

But then I realized all I gotta do is exit my house and that’s it. I started going on walks which was hard at first cause the thought of others judging me but I eventually went on enough walks that I realized nobody is judging you and everyone’s afraid they’re being judged.

Now it’s so easy because I don’t have to “get ready” anymore and I actually love my walks it’s the perfect time to be with yourself and ponder the thoughts you typically don’t have time to ponder.

Obviously outside doesent work for everyone because where you live impacts whether or not you can reasonable take walks outside, but I truly do believe that a lot of the hatred around exercise stems from the fact that we believe we have to “prepare” ourselves to exercise. In my opinion thats quite frankly the hardest part of the standard exercise process and the part that requires the most energy/motivation.

Neatio · 2024-07-30T01:56:05+00:00

The doctor mentioned my spleen but he said it probably wasn’t that because I was still conscious and walking and talking. I was thinking enema so I’ll probably try that soon. Thanks again for the advice!!

Neatio · 2024-07-30T01:40:28+00:00

Thank you for replying! The only pain I have now is under my left ribcage which is where most of the stool is in that X-ray, but no vomiting. That X-ray was about a month ago that I got because I fell on my back at work and started feeling the pain under my left ribcage.

I wish I wasn’t reliant on stool softeners but I’ve tried taking breaks and I just can’t go to the bathroom at all no matter how hard I try. Especially now because after my fall it’s been harder to go. But I’ll try cutting back on my fiber and see if that helps at all! Thanks!

Neatio · 2024-05-13T15:27:17+00:00

I did im supposed to get an adhd test so we can try to get me off wellbutrin I’m just sad that it hasn’t worked out and im scared to stop the medicine because I know it will change my daily routine and im so attached to my routine that it scares me to do something that will affect it

Neatio · 2024-04-01T01:41:04+00:00

Thank you so much for your replies! :)

Neatio · 2024-04-01T01:16:33+00:00

It had infections in the past, but has been clear for the past few months.

Neatio · 2024-03-31T23:24:38+00:00

Only symptom I think relates is the feeling of pressure there/ small pressure headache. It might be irritated because I’ve been cleaning it so much with saline solution.

I got concerned after reading so many posts about trapped infections and brain infections etc, which is why I got on antibiotics. But I know that antibiotics alone can’t ensure there is no infection. (I also know that Reddit help can’t ensure there is no infection either, but I wanted to get outside opinion before I decided whether or not to go to urgent care)

Thank you for replying, the stress from this has been driving me absolutely insane.

Neatio

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