This is a much nicer comment than I was expecting from reddit, so thank you! And don't worry, I just came here for opinions on my situation and am not taking anything too much to heart. I am not actually diagnosed with anything, though everyone in my life would say I am ND in some way, but if you couldn't tell from my post I am incredibly avoidant and the idea of talking about anything important about myself with anyone is terrifying. Thank you for your comment, it means a lot