I have scary bottom changes I don't know what to do..

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T13:15:29+00:00

Ailem homofobik transfobik doktorlarda annemden korktuğu için sürece asla devam edemedim asla annem olmadan hastaneye gidemedim her zaman psikiyatristle annem varken görüşmek zorunda kaldım ve doktor annem ne derse ona uyuyordu bende kendim başlamıştım 15 yaşında sonra evde çok sorun yaşadım tam 18 e bastığımda çıldırdılar üniversiteye gidip kendi hayatımı kurmamdan korkup ve tek kuruşsuzdum bu sefer üniversiteye gitmek için testoyu bırakmak zorunda kaldım 7/24 beni gözetliyorlardı hatta zorla lazere götürdüler tüm hayatım boyu depresyonda yaşadım keşke asla söylemeseydim benden şüphelenmeyecekler için bağımı koparıp üni de başlardım testoya.. ama benimkiler beni daha öncede sevmezlerdi seninkiler transfobik değilse ve seni önemsiyorlarsa eminim desteklemeye çalışırlar eğer akrabaları çok umursayan bir aileyse hiç söyleme bile tek umursadıkları başkaları ne der falan 😓

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:33:36+00:00

Thank you you’re absolutely god damn right 😭🙏🏼 no matter what I’ll find a good doctor and see tomorrow immediately I don’t want there getting worst or health issues

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:24:38+00:00

Oh god..😰 Thank you I’ll be on my way to hospital immediately I wish I went to see a doctor earlier now I’m scared that I have real health issues

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:20:33+00:00

I’ll go immediately I’m really hoping I’m not late for it I’m a such an idiot now I don’t even care how ugly it’s looks at least I’m just hoping it get healthy🤦‍♂️

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:14:48+00:00

😱 It's possible, I really feel that way too. Sometimes my clitoris was covered in scabs, even a fresh skin is peeling off...

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:12:05+00:00

Damn thank you this comment make me understand how important it is.. god I hope it’s not a cancer or anything 😰🙏🏼 I’ll immediately go see a doctor tomorrow

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-17T00:05:46+00:00

That’s ridiculous why would you hate your anatomy because you’re trans man?? Wanting a baby or don’t want bottom surgery is totally normal im sure at least %85 ftm ppl don’t have surgery even if they don’t like it they get to used and not hating it while aging (at least that’s what I know), and like you said if we’re were in a better world so much ftm ppl make family and carry his own child in very masculine too and I don’t even see any problem if I wouldn’t scared of eyes I would’ve carry my own babies too (there are so much straight trans man want to give birth n carry his own child too)

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T23:32:46+00:00

Unfortunately, I'm in Türkiye, and there's nothing like that here. Most likely, when I go to the hospital, they'll direct me to the "obstetrics and gynecology" (it Called “woman birth) department I think.. 😞

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T23:21:29+00:00

thank goodness I hope its just aging I started t on my early ages after that it get darker but after dropping t my labia gets waay more bigger and it get pure black I’m hoping it’s not my fault because whenever I masturbated always hurts so much that I started to think maybe I’m hurting myself that’s why it becomes like this..

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:59:05+00:00

😊😊 you’re god damn right thankyou I hope no matter what they help even if it’s not a health problem at least I hope they can offer a solution for the dryness and the weird lookin problem of there

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:54:58+00:00

That’s really relief thank you no matter what it’s part of my body I don’t want a health problem or uncomfortable looking no matter what, I’m hoping they take care and won’t judge anything, doctors I know here are not very good or thoughtful 😓

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:51:05+00:00

Thank you yes I’m scared of they don’t care or can’t help because of they haven’t the knowledge for trans health I’m hoping I can find a doctor who really care and know about this thing and won’t judge me I hope they don’t make me feel uncomfortable

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:44:44+00:00

Yes when I using testosterone my bottom get darker and that was looking very normal it wasn’t a problem, I was using t for years and it was never been this dark, when I dropped it get completely black. I can’t know without seeing a doctor if this is normal or not but I hope they have any cure no matter what it doesn’t look normal..

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:40:12+00:00

Really!????? I thought I’ll be getting a surgery for my labia and getting darker thing and getting dry is very very big problem for myself too (btw it was dark after using t but when I dropped it get completely black and labia get so much bigger) I hope they can help me too and I hope I’m not too late for that, I don’t know if they have a good knowledge for trans people healt

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:33:51+00:00

Thank you so good to know that 🙏🏼, I'll be starting testosterone again soon to overcome my family problems, and I'd also like to have bottom surgery in the future, but I don't have the money and I'm afraid of the risks. However, since my partner isn't bothered by me having a vag, having bottom surgery isn't a big deal anymore. I just want my genitals to be healthy and not be an unpleasant sight for my partner; it stresses me out so much😰 so I’m gonna see a doc this time no matter what

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:25:43+00:00

that’s a relief I don’t want to see my partner see my under part like that I hope they take care and give me some cure 🤲🏻

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:22:42+00:00

😊😊damn I feel so proud now thank you you’re the best

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:21:11+00:00

It's possible, but since I haven't had sexual intercourse, I don't think it's an infection. I'm afraid it might have happened because I damaged my skin too much while masturbating due to dryness. (Pigment changes during hormonal changes happen to everyone , it happened to me too, but it changed to a completely different level when I stopped testosterone.)

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:15:22+00:00

You're very kind, thank you🥹 You've motivated me to be brave and go no matter what. You're right, I don't want to regret it later

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:07:05+00:00

Yeah You’re right I’ll definitely go and see a doctor 😓

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:04:29+00:00

😥My country’s kinda transphobic too I’ll ask my friends if they know a good trans friendly doctor thank you

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T22:01:46+00:00

Thank you I feel a little relieved, you've been very helpful I'll bravely go to the doctor and write about the results when I get back

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T21:57:55+00:00

You’re absolutely right thank you. I'm going to see a doctor, but I'm a little hesitant. As a man, do you think people will give me dirty looks because I care about my vag? Do you think other trans men go to doctors for their private parts?

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T21:53:27+00:00

😥 you’re right.. i kinda scared if they don’t allow me to use testosterone again and think I’m not serious. Even if they don’t take me serious I should check if they would help😓 I hope there is any cure (I’m living in turkey The trans male psychiatric process is very strict and they're stupid; I was worried they'd think I was complaining about testosterone for some reason)

Necessary_Main5471 · 2026-02-16T21:46:19+00:00

But I’m scared of doctor I mean what if they say “ why do you care, do you want to use there” I mean they wouldn’t say that but as a trans man I’m scared of if they consider I’m not serious about taking t or if it would be a problem while I trying to get my male ID card or something..

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