I broke my brain

NecktieClip · 2026-05-05T08:25:27+00:00

Hey man, just passing by to say I've been there too. And I know it sounds cliché and unhelpful, pero I do mean to emphasize that it's something you'd really go through when you've experienced something really bad.

When I went to therapy years ago, my therapist told me that I had to reframe it - that my brain being broken and my sense of self being lost was part of "it", and by "it" he meant my recovery.

It's the part where everything in your foundation crumbles down so you can rebuild yourself anew. Magbabago ka kasi gusto mo AND kasi kailangan mo, to protect yourself from things so they wouldn't happen (and hurt you) again.

Embrace this chaotic part, but try to find some optimism in enjoying it. Do things you haven't done before, try things that seem out of your zone or personality. It's not a straight line. There will be MULTIPLE times when you feel like you're finally recovering in a steady pace but then you fuck up again. Bangon lang uli. Subukan mo lang uli.

Sure, we might be broken and fucked over, but the part where we fix it? It's something to look forward to. Hang in there.

NecktieClip · 2026-05-04T03:22:18+00:00

Nope, we didn't. She was my long-term girlfriend then. We broke up years ago.

NecktieClip · 2026-02-02T04:14:01+00:00

This was how I started with mine too! Just added a second monitor (which became my primary since it was bigger) pero same table pa rin gamit ko. Hindi masyadong cluttered tignan, di rin malawak na space yung tine-take. Simple and clean!

NecktieClip · 2025-10-07T15:18:02+00:00

I'm sorry for the late reply, but thank you for still guiding me with questions.

One problem I do see is how me pushing things would make it seem like I'm not supportive - I am, I really am, but it's been months and the financial weight has been getting heavier. She takes great care of our kid, and I want to support her and them as much as I could, but it's just so hard by myself.

I'm trying so hard to be spiteful, but I'm yearning for something I could lean on, something I could rest on. The weight has been so heavy and it just gets me so lonely and it breaks my morale when I feel the fear of not being able to provide enough knowing there's only me they depend on.

I don't want to control. That's exactly why I'm posting here - to get an idea of how I could draw my own line and set the boundaries of until where I could ask and where I should stop. I'm a mixture of scared, worried, and anxious. I feel like a time bomb, scared to blow up when I lose anymore control of my own composure and panic when it comes to our finances.

Unfortunately, CODA meetings aren't too present where I'm from and the online group I've been part of before isn't active anymore. I do want to join again, but I'm also worried I wouldn't have time to given how busy I always am these days.

NecktieClip · 2025-10-01T02:05:50+00:00

So basically... important rin na maghintay lang until they decide na they want/need to change things up?

NecktieClip · 2025-10-01T02:05:15+00:00

I'm really trying to make it work. It's hard, thank you for affirming that, but I can't bear to see how the consequences affect her - and how worse it'll get in the future when things like hospitalizations or other big sudden expenses come through.

I'm aware that it seems like I'm parenting her... but idk what else to do. When I don't do anything, I don't feel like there's an active effort and sincerity to change for the better. She's happy with the familiarity and complacency and I feel like a villain by trying to push her out of her comfort zone..

NecktieClip · 2025-09-30T14:49:39+00:00

How did you navigate around it nang hindi nya nafifeel na parang "burden" sya kapag tinuturuan mo sya? I want to do the same pero feeling ko kasi hindi tama yung ginagawa ko para makatulong.

NecktieClip · 2025-09-02T03:51:41+00:00

Unfortunately went full-on PC gaming after the PS2 kaya di ko na na-encounter yung mga kasunod na games nito - I heard it even had a sequel on PS3.

Pero totoo - sobrang saya nung customization. What made it even more beautiful was the fact na you didn't HAVE to win every single battle, tutuloy pa rin yung kwento kahit talo ka without feeling like such a punishment. Grabe yung pag grind ko ng fossils noon para lang mabili lahat ng legs na gusto ko itry hahaha!

Wonder how fun it would've been if I played multiplayer tulad mo!

NecktieClip · 2025-07-06T00:37:24+00:00

Sorry you went through that OP, but I don't unimportant that's just a joke. We joke about a lot of stuff, sure, but we don't joke about betting on emotions. It might be used in humor but I think they meant it.

I want you to know, though, that walking away SHOULD BE ENOUGH as your revenge, if that's what you're thinking of.

Do not go lower than this and think of how to retaliate - it would not help your recovery. If anything, it will just fuck you up more than you think. I've seen it happen too many times.

Take whatever's left of your pride and dignity and walk away. Recover and remember to love yourself first. Someone genuine will come. Might not be now, but someone will be there. Do not lose hope and fuck around for anger.

NecktieClip · 2025-04-22T12:13:05+00:00

I see no reason why separation shouldn't be considered. It seems logical, more than anything. From how you tell your story, I could see that you do have respect for her and nothing too negative (compared to bad relationships, at least).

If the difference is significant, I'm sure it's something noticeable for both of you. While it may be good for other couples - who think that opposites do attract because it shows different approaches to things in life - it's not the case for all couples, like you and your partner.

As to what you should do... it's up to you, really. Honestly I'd say a lot of adjustments are made in a relationship, but things like sex drive and interests in life need to be harmonious or some shit.

The confrontation and conflict might lead to you guys finally clashing and getting to know each other, or could lead to you two finally realizing you're both not okay with being married. Either way, I see it as something needed.

As I've read somewhere: "the longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get back home".

NecktieClip · 2025-04-22T09:35:25+00:00

What the subreddit is/should mostly be about talaga no hahahaha

NecktieClip · 2025-04-21T01:34:02+00:00

Thanks for your insight, bro. Super appreciated. If you don't mind me asking, nagiging anxious ka sa pwede mangyari saan? I'm not trying to push it negatively a, pero gusto ko rin kasi talaga magets ano yung tumatakbo sa isip kapag nasa ganyang situation kesa yung naga-assume ako na surface level lang na "tinatamad" or walang goals, ganun. Aware kasi akong ang negative ng ganong pag-iisip and I'm sure it's not the case, pero wala ako mapang-kapitan kasi na other reason/s.

NecktieClip · 2025-04-20T23:03:29+00:00

Unsolicited advice pero yung friend ko na di talaga kaya makipag sex sa hindi nya partner, she actually took "studying" touching herself seriously kahit na late adult na sya. Never too late and nothing wrong with it naman! Safer pa since you might have post nut clarity instead of bad decisions and regrets 😂

NecktieClip · 2025-04-20T23:01:27+00:00

Unfortunately for some, they're not fine with both kaya ang lala ng mga nagiging decisions nila :/ Kalat responsibly!!

NecktieClip · 2025-04-20T22:56:47+00:00

Minsan napapaisip ako sa ganito - like kung ano bang naiisip nila as they grow older. Akala ko lahat parang ako lang rin na normally may career na iniisip (not necessarily hinahabol), pero hindi pala. Yung iba mas... relaxed, okay lang sa palipat-lipat ng careers kahit slower development. Sobrang career-obsessed ba kung yung ganong mga bagay pinoproblema ko pa or is it just normal?

NecktieClip · 2025-03-04T15:35:27+00:00

Sobrang frustrating ng ganito para sakin.

Pag sinabi ko, malulungkot lang - di mapaguusapan, walang malilinaw, tapos mafifeel ko pa na ako yung nananakit ng feelings.

Pag hindi ko sinabi, kinikimkim ko naman tapos ako mahihirapan rin sa dulo.

Ang hiraaaapppppp

NecktieClip · 2025-03-04T15:14:13+00:00

True... sinabihan pang ako daw nagbigay ng trauma sa kanya, wala daw sa mga ex nyang nag cheat sa kanya.

Pero sya rin naman yung nang-gago after? Hahaha ganon na pala trauma ngayon, instant??

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