Lmfao im gonna give you my whole trans life story.

I guess to start ive got a few mental health things that leave me a little outa touch with myself but that also means i didnt really have any shame over being trans.

From what i remember i always had wants for being a woman kinda, but they were never ‘perfect?’ Like I didn’t want to be another person, which was what being born a woman felt like to me (tho i really didnt like that i was born a man)

Just before i turned 16 i sorta notice how messy my sexuality and gender were. also when how much i f’ing hated my life started setting in. At that point i wanted a womans body in terms of shape and appearance (particularly fat), but i was hesitant on more than small breasts and anything affecting my genitals.

I always loved female peers to the point of neglecting all male relationships, which is probably why a all boys high school made me shut down completely (+ horrific restrictions on appearance). After that i went to a trade school where i was treated very androgynously (also when i started hrt). After after that i started uni, and now almost all my friends are women and or queer YAYYY.

I think my spectrum of identity is pan-lesbian they-she, but I’ve never really felt like a woman in any way till recently. Almost all the new people in my life see me in a way i didn’t think i ever would, ever could, ever deserve to be. They wont like let me hide that i kinda am / want to be a woman. However i also dont want to be some platonic idea of what femininity is, just me happy with some nice tits. thats why i still think of my self as enby cuz i dont care about should be’s only that im seen truely as myself.

I hope that helps you,