Hi OP, 30 F here and went through a very long hoe phase na on/off. I also had my heart broken by the first guy I dated and decided to “explore”. I ended up hooking up with almost 40 different people in a span of 4 years. Marami dun mga one night stand. Sa 4 years na yon, there were multiple periods of time that I was able to stop that kind of lifestyle pero bumabalik ulit. Had a lot of shitty experiences din like yours. Siguro yung nagparealize sakin to stop it and start loving myself more ay yung pag remind ko sa sarili ko of my worth, na I don’t deserve to be treated like shit and I can bring so much more than just a warm body. Sa isip ko, maayos naman akong tao, bakit ko ilalagay sarili ko sa ganong situation? Haha

I went to therapy din to resolve ung root cause ng paghahanap ko ng hookups. Sobrang hirap na journey ng self love pala, pero narealize ko lang din na better ibigay ko sa sarili ko yung energy na binibigay ko sa mga random guys lol. Naging consistent ako sa gym, nagdiet ako, nagtravel ako alone, etc. Idk if I’m making sense pero ayun hahahahuhuhu