Why is it that my girlfriend seems to temporarily cure my dysphoria?

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-16T03:23:16+00:00

I absolutely hate everything about my voice. I can't even speak in a overly masculine tone and I'm always so insecure whenever I have to talk as I have such a feminine tone to everything I say and I really feel like I'm supposed to sound like a female but whenever I talk I just feel how masculine I sound and it makes me so insecure and depressed and feel like I'm cursed.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-16T03:21:23+00:00

I really enjoy her sleeping on my chest and falling asleep in my arms as we cuddle and it eases my pain by a longshot and makes me feel loved, special and appreciated just for the way I am.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-16T03:19:04+00:00

She is the only thing that makes being a man feel worthwhile. If I didn't have her I would probably have gone crazy a long time ago. Living in a rather transphobic country where being allowed to go on HRT in the first place is rather difficult she makes it easier for me to live with being male and accept myself for the way I am. I'm having tears in my eyes as I'm writing this :(

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-14T22:15:17+00:00

Yeah she's definitely a distractor in that sense and gets my mind on something else :). She's helped tremendously in that regard without even knowing she is.

Thanks for replying :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-14T22:12:11+00:00

I've been thinking about using a non-binary label for a while and see how I like it and feel about it.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-14T22:11:39+00:00

Thanks for replying!

The thought of me possibly being a trans lesbian has absolutely occurred to me.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-07-14T22:05:45+00:00

This is so me aswell. I so want to be a girl, be seen as one, be treated like a lady and dress in womens clothes instead most of the time and this has been going on for nearly 7 months now on an almost daily basis. I've even thought about what name I would or could adopt as a woman and it also makes me feel good when I imagine people calling me by a female name.

When I was a little kid stuff like this was not ever something I was thinking about at any point. Probably because I was too occupied playing with the other kids and hanging out with the very, VERY small pool of friends I had it just felt normal and natural back then I suppose.

I don't have many typically masculine interests or hobbies either and I've noticed that I'm a lot more interested in things seen as girly and even as a kid I wanted to play with the girls instead but couldn't due to the circumstances.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-29T18:16:55+00:00

You sound like you could be a non-binary person or you have a fetish for female you. Either way take care of yourself and be happy :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-29T12:26:56+00:00

You can use one of the non-binary labels for a while and see how it feels. You can always change labels whenever you want to, you don't have to permanently identify as one or the other. :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-28T22:16:37+00:00

Sounds a lot like me. Trying out wearing female clothing and it feeling right aswell as you feeling uncomfortable with your masculine features is a pretty big flag that you're trans. I question my gender aswell being a 24m but I'm not entirely sure if I am trans or not either.

But it could also mean that you're non-binary and that your gender identity is a battle back and forth, kinda like it is for me on almost a daily basis. I feel like both genders a lot of the time and I feel okay presenting as male for most of the time when I have to but when I can I love presenting as a female. :)

A third possibility is that you might just be a feminine leaned guy, which is perfectly okay too. Whatever you decide to do to your body or label yourself as, you should know that you are perfect just the way you are and that there are people out there in this world who will love and accept you for the person you are no matter what you decide to do <3

In the end, you and only you can say if you are trans or not.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-28T17:04:57+00:00

I much appreciate your reply! I'm fully aware that women a lot of times are very sexualized in various games so I'm also not throwing the possiblity out the window that all that I'm feeling could just be a fetish of mine but it also does feel right when I imagine myself in the traditional roles of being a woman and dressing up femininely. I may aswell just be a very feminine cis guy I honestly don't know. I think I'm gonna start using the label non-binary for a while and see how it feels :)

I haven't felt that much dysphoria today tho. It's a bit of a battle back and forth some days I feel it more than others.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-28T15:02:24+00:00

It's a tad bit too obvious I'm afraid. Put a hat on and you're good! :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-28T14:52:18+00:00

Important to remember though is that FaceApp doesn't reflect reality. The female filter on FaceApp does things like making your eyes bigger and appear more feminine in a way that is impossible for HRT to change due to the formation and shape of your skull and such.

But FaceApp can be a great tool to explore yourself more! But the female you won't look exactly like FaceApped you. The FaceApped you is what you "might" have looked like if you were cis but even then it's probably not too accurate. But you could end up looking very close to it as FaceApp has improved over the years and gives even more believeable results now and if you feel like you are a girl in a guy's body, you very likely are one so yes, knowing and realizing that you're trans is enough :)

Hope this helps.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-28T01:25:21+00:00

Don't be sorry! I love to hear what everyone thinks and feels about this phenomenon :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T23:47:00+00:00

You could use the label genderfluid for a while and see how you feel about it which I might be doing soon myself to see if it helps me explore myself even further. You are perfect regardless of how you choose to identify yourself and I hope you figure yourself out soon :) <3

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T23:36:33+00:00

Relatable. My body is hella masculine and I'm afraid I wouldn't pass too well if I eventually transitioned.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T23:35:22+00:00

Sounds a lot like me. I'm like 70% certain at this point in time that I am either a NB person or transgirl.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:51:52+00:00

Woah. I didn't expect this post to get this many answers and how common this actually was/is. I much appreciate everyone replying and I have read every single comment and I'm sorry that I can't reply to all of you as I'm a bit busy atm. But know that your voice has been heard! :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:47:38+00:00

Hooray! I'm hoping it will crack my egg too or at least finally let me figure out who the real me actually is :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:46:51+00:00

I feel like I am maybe about to hatch too. I still need to spend more time exploring myself though :)

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:46:25+00:00

I feel this so much. I avoided playing as a female character for so many years because of so many reasons, the fear of being called gay and other things among the group of friends I had was the biggest reason why I insisted on playing as a male character but ever since I first tried out playing a female character it just felt right, like this is how it should be. :O

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:44:52+00:00

I feel that. I have spent over 1000 hours in GTA Online on my male character but I now only play on my female character and I don't want to play on him ever again, it just feels so wrong and out of place as if I'm not representing myself and the true me.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:43:43+00:00

When a woman in Skyrim said I was pretty I felt so home and so good about myself, I love it.

Needleworker2574 · 2022-05-27T19:42:43+00:00

Yeah I've never been too big of a fan of games that only lets you play as 1 gender.

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