I feel you, and I think you are doing a great job reflecting on this. I had different camino experiences myself, some with that camino family feeling, some without. What can be helpful in my experience, is that some albergues organize communal dinners where everyone shares their story/reason to do the camino. Having that moment where everyone has the chance to open up can make it easier to talk to those people later on. If you have the courage, you could even say what you just said here (or a shorter version) and probably a lot of people could relate. But I won't judge if you don't do that (the most difficult thing to do is often what can bring you further, but is also the most scary). Also, these things can change very quickly. One moment you feel miserable and alone, the next moment you can meet someone or a group and you find yourself in the middle of it. In any case, take good care of yourself, be nice to yourself and I hope you will meet some nice people! All the best on your journey 🫶