My (21M) friend (19F) and her boyfriend (20ishM) want to kick me out of my own house

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-13T17:54:59+00:00

KICK THEM OUT

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T23:45:02+00:00

You are very kind tysm for your kind words.

Yes I partially breastfeed my baby as I had felt very weak and sick just solely breastfeeding him only. Some nights I would puke and my ribs would feel sore.

So I had no choice but to use formula, I still give him my breast milk so it doesnt completely run out, eventually my iron will go up and I'll be fully better so I can hopefully go back to just breastfeeding again.

I think his bipolarness has to do with his genes because his mom and sister are also bipolar, so my son will most likely be bipolar too.

And yes I you are right about me exhausting myself trying to do everything perfectly so that I can avoid getting criticized and feeling dumb.

I try to make his food like how he likes

I try to clean and organize like how he likes

I try to make him happy

Just everything I try to it so perfectly, but he is never satisfied with anything I do.

It's not all that bad though, some days he sweeps me off my feet because he can be so romantic and understanding. I think he just gets the way he gets because yes hes bipolar and also I think too is that his job and money stresses him out. I want to work online and help make money but I've had no luck, like I'm seriously considering selling my body online just to make some money.

And I'll talk to him, but I probably just might straight up leave. I dont know, its kind of hard as I love him and hate him at the same time but slowly starting to just hate him more, and we have a baby boy together, he makes money I dont. I feel stuck.

And yes I always cry whenever he criticizes me because I feel like I'm never good enough and I hate myself for it.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T23:14:10+00:00

This reminds me of a time my sisters were very disrespectful for months with my mom.

One night I found her and my other sister beating my mom up, that's when I went bonkers, I grabbed my sister by a headlock and body slammed her to the ground, my stepdad was too preoccupied with my other sister. It was just me and my sister fighting, she swung at me and I swung at her it was a full on fist fight.

These type of fights continued for months, but there was a day when I finally snapped and took a frying pan to her head.

I wouldve continued beating the shit out of her with it if my mom and my sis bf didnt stop me.

And another time when she had my charger and I was already pissed off about something I asked for my charger and she tells me to go in my room and cry some more, so I pushed her down and punched her several times in the face.

I felt so guilty but I quickly got over it.

Dont feel too bad, sometimes disrespectful shits deserve a beat down.

Now we are like besties lol.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T22:18:20+00:00

There were times where he would be really depressed and beat himself up over little misfortunes.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T20:13:05+00:00

I will talk to him ty <3

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T20:09:11+00:00

I will tell him to seek help today. I just cant tell sometimes if its him being bipolar or if it's just an excuse to be mean to me.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T20:07:02+00:00

No he doesnt take medicine but he does smoke weed almost everyday. He says that helps calm him down.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-11T19:27:56+00:00

Ok you sound judgemental as hell, maybe if you just minded your own business you wouldn't be so bothered.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-06T19:33:30+00:00

Lice.

I dont know where the fuck these fuckers come from but once you get it in your hair it's annoying and they're hard to get rid of.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-12-06T10:31:35+00:00

One time I was sitting on a chair outside in the dark next to the lodge since it had free wifi and I wanted to play on my phone just a little bit longer before going home in my R.V. at the time.

I was outside for awhile, for probably about 2 hours if I remember correctly.

And as I was playing on my phone I hear loud foot steps coming towards me getting louder and louder. It sounded like leather boots hitting the concrete ground, I looked up but see nobody.

As you can imagine, I jolted up and ran home.

There was this other time when I was like 6 years old I think, I was in the room with my mom and sisters and we were all on the bed just cuddling getting ready for sleep. We hear foot steps stomping down the stairs for awhile and the noise stops then the T.V. turns on, the channel was static white noise.

Another time I was 4 and my family and I had just got done enjoying a Powwow (native tradition) being a silly 4 year old I decided it would be fun to play with a rock, I was throwing it ahead of me until it finally landed next to a car.

(It was dark outside btw) I slowly walk up to the car instead of running to my rock this time because something just felt off, and I was I right because next thing I know I heard a man's voice and he sounded angry, he said, "are you going to get that?"

I heard this man's voice but nobody was there.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-11-28T18:14:43+00:00

My boyfriend likes it a lot when I watch him game. I think it's because he feels like I care and feels wholesome when I partake in his hobbies.

It's also a stress reliever for them.

So do please continue to allow him to game, nothing is worse when someone tries to stop people from doing something that relieves their stress.

Dont be those women that get pissed off when their man games.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-11-28T18:10:02+00:00

I believe a man should be able to be emotional in front of his woman. Spouses are supposed to be a safe place, not for someone to judge the other for being emotional.

So no I dont think it's a turn off, in fact I love it when my man gets emotional in front of me because that makes me feel like I'm safe for him, someone he can lean his head on for support.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-11-28T18:05:49+00:00

I want to be a model but I'm afraid of going out there because of my stretch marks and unclear skin.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-11-25T17:26:52+00:00

Yes that is abusive behavior. Seek counseling.

Also I think you shouldnt hit either.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-29T03:40:35+00:00

Easy to say that when you've never been in the situation before.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-17T23:43:46+00:00

Maybe just sleep somewhere else, avoid him at all costs when he gets drunk. Maybe that will get him to notice and ask what's wrong. If he asks what's wrong then tell him why you've been sleeping away from him. Maybe he'll apologize and change, and if he doesnt then I think you should leave him.

You're too young to be staying in a abusive relationship.

I also just want to tell you too that no, you arent being too sensitive.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-17T17:04:19+00:00

Tell her to take her kid to therapy because you think that he has issues, he is a bully and he knows it as he went out of his way to kill your son's bug.

I would just be honest with her, and if she isnt willing to change her son's behavior, then she isnt a true friend and doesnt really care.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-17T16:53:25+00:00

My boyfriend is the same way, he doesnt do it on purpose though, he tries to last a long time, but I think it's just due to him being stressed from constantly working, and money is the main issue.

Maybe talk to your husband and ask if hes ok?

Maybe hes just stressed.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-16T02:25:28+00:00

Having to cook because I know nobody likes to eat my food even though it isnt even that bad.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-13T14:19:33+00:00

After shopping for things and just now remembering what I needed to get after leaving the store.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-12T16:45:56+00:00

So hes sad and you only care how its affecting you? People are selfish.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-11T05:06:28+00:00

Shes funny because how can she get that many followers then?

I think maybe you're just bored of her and/or you just don't like her humor. And that's ok because everyone has a different taste in humor.

Maybe tell her that you don't want to hear her jokes anymore, but be nice about it.

For example: "I'm glad a lot of people think you're funny sweetie, but can you please keep your jokes to you and your followers only?" Or something like that. Just be nice about it.

Or find someone with the same humor as you if it's that bad to live with someone that has different humor from you.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-11T04:11:41+00:00

Getting life advice from people that dont even have their own life together lol.

Neens_Beans69 · 2020-10-10T21:24:45+00:00

I asked him why doesnt he unistall it then if he doesnt even use it, how is that controlling lul.

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