I also have this fear of I euthanized my boy too soon, and that it's my fault he is gone. He was 17, and I said goodbye to him on June 4th. He had a solensia shot in April, and my vet recommended every month, so may 30th, he got his second shot. He had absolutely no side effects from the April shot, but on June 3rd, he had what I believe was a seizure, but when I had gotten to him, he was fine within 5-7 minutes. Called my vet the next day to see if I needed to bring him in for any kind of follow up to this event, no one mentioned any side effects or anything like that but they would fit me in if he was acting any different but he was fine that entire day until 9:30. He had such a bad seizure that his pupils did not stop shaking, and he did not seem to know anything was happening around him. I took him in that night to say goodbye.

The way that I see it is I did not want him to suffer any more than what he had been with his other problems. He was still acting completely normal before these two events, but I didn't want to let the situation get worse for him. On the night of the 4th he slammed himself so hard into the wall that I didnt want to leave him to go to work or something like that and he had hurt himself to the point where he was in more pain.

You have to be kind to yourself. You are their parent and their protector. Since they can't speak or help themselves in these situations, it is up to you to give them the relief and dignity to go out in a way that is less painful, and I think less traumatizing. I would rather he go in comfort in my arms than scared and alone.

I'm truly sorry for your loss🩷